um so. i don't have to see laura. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

this is from earlier today:

‘so we all had a meeting a few hrs. ago. my dad was there too. well the next meeting’s sept. cause I feel like at the meetings i’m just wasting my time and they’re wasting theirs and no one gets anything done.

so someone was saying that laura [our family attorney] would be at the next meeting. well so some time after it amber’s like ‘well legally a: we’re not allowed to have a meeting about you w/ laura w/o you being present and 2: since you’re your own guardian ..........if you don’t want laura there she won’t be there’. ok good. idon’t like laura and I don’t ever want to see her until the time comes when you know. my parents aren’t here anymore. so again the odds are in my favor. and once again I get what I want. as usual. I don’t know why I feel bad about that. I think it’s cause. it’s almost too easy. it’s like I don’t have to work at that. and a part of me feels like I should. well I don’t want them to know that. cause then they might change that and I don’t want that. it’s almost like. I don’t think it should be that easy. I don’t think I should have it handed to me like that.

my life is almost too easy in a way. I don’t have to work that hard at anything except my own personal things. you know anor. recovery, PTSD stuff, depression. but other than that. people are under this impression that. what i’m being asked to do is difficult. the daily things. and it’s not. no it’s not that at all. it’s the fact i’m being told to do it that I don’t like.’