So.. in Since OD is shutting down....

I took my niece to daycare this morning and then I came home and passed out until about 1pm. I was about to blow my interview because I was so tired but got up, showered and went. It was actually a lot of fun and the lady was super laid back and fun to talk to. I actually enjoyed it and she said that they have a very low turn over rate, people aren’t treated like robots and talked down to. She asked if I wanted to start right away or if I wanted 2 weeks because of my other job. I told her I can start right away because they know I’m looking for something else and she said at one point she already liked me. I guess she had 3 other interviews and would prefer someone with experience but she would call after her last interview.

I left feeling pretty good about things. She called about 6pm tonight and told me I got the job. I GOT THE MOTHERFUCKING JOB!!!!!!! I was so excited and feeling so blessed that it was my first interview somewhere in a long time and that I got hired!!! I’m super excited and nervous at the same time. I can’t believe I will be there tomorrow at 3 and will learn a new job and new people. She said there’s a lot of multi tasking and it’s fast paced and that’s the kind of job I’m used to.

My nerves are starting to set in because I figured I’d finish out the summer where I’m at and then get into something else before the snow starts flying but life is just too short to continue being unhappy and this is my chance to get out of a place that’s a fucking dump. I know that I’m going to be just fine once I get in and get trained. It’s more of a social job doing front desk at a motel but I’d prefer that and she said that everyone gets along, no one gets yelled at and there’s nothing I can do on the computer that can’t be fixed.

It’s so awesome that I’m going to break away from a place that’s made me so miserable physically, emotionally, and mentally. I won’t have anyone to avoid anymore, I won’t have to walk on eggshells around the GM and I won’t die of the heat anymore because they won’t pay to fix the AC. The hotel I’ll be working at is air conditioned, has an incredible pool and I’ll make $9 an hour for the first 90 days and then I’ll get a raise. She also said I will get bonuses and that she’s actually issued bonuses bigger than people’s paychecks. That is absolutely awesome.

I’m just so glad I didn’t blow the interview. I fucking hate interviews because I am kinda shy and awkward until I get warmed up and always worry I’m not making a good enough impression but she made me very comfortable and we were even laughing and joking. I like knowing I will be able to make customers happy by providing discounts and what not without getting in some kind of trouble later. I’m happy that I won’t be working around food and I will actually get off work when I’m scheduled to leave. I will have to wear a long sleeved shirt because of my tattoos on my forearms but my lip and nose ring won’t be a problem at all.

It’s so crazy that I’m finally going to break away from a place that’s such a joke. I was never going to get anywhere there or get a raise and I was unbelievably sick of having to worry about that one person not liking me that always had an upper hand because she was a fucking manager. I can’t even be mad about what happened the other day because now I’m in a better direction with my life. She can have that place and all the bullshit that goes along with it. I wouldn’t be surprised if she quits now that she’s gotten rid of me. I honestly believe that was her mission but now, I don’t have to care anymore.

I have to get to bed because it’s almost midnight and I want to try and get some sleep. I’m nervous but feel oddly content at the same time. I can’t believe how quickly I was able to find a new job and it was the one I wanted. I don’t want to work around food anymore and it’s going to be so nice to work in a place that’s air conditioned so I can actually start wearing make up again. I’m happy that there’s chairs behind the front counter and I’ll be able to sit too. I worry about my feet so it’s going to be nice to know I will have breaks to sit down.

It’s so crazy to know that I won’t have to worry about any of my old co workers or their bullshit. I was just so fucking sick of looking at all of them, dealing with the ones who didn’t know shit and the ones who always made comments to me like I didn’t do anything when I would do most of the side work by myself every single day. I’m just so glad to be out of there. This is a good thing for me and I’m taking it.

I’ve done so much thinking this week and realize that I didn’t want to go back and I worked last night and just couldn’t stop thinking about getting a new job and not have to worry about the same bullshit day in an day out anymore. I am so glad that what happened on Monday has now changed my thinking and I just finally realized that place isn’t what I want anymore. It hasn’t been for a long time and once I was told I had to go to our other location or basically find something else, well that said it all. Obviously everything I did for that place didn’t matter and it’s nice that I can just put it behind me.

That place is the typical food joint where it’s poorly managed, wages are shit and it’s never going to get better. I was there for 20 months and put up with way more than I ever expected or even considered. I don’t know how many nights I wanted to come home and put my fist through a wall. I convinced myself it wasn’t that bad because I was scared of the unknown and it’s like no matter how thick skinned I was, the place still managed to tear me down on the daily. I was so tired of being cursed out and demoralized EVERY SINGLE DAY.

I wish all of them the best and hope the ones I liked there break away too. It’s not a place for anyone to be and I’ve watched it slowly just get worse and worse, especially since the GM got hired. That guy was a fucking prick. I always tried to joke with him but he was just too serious, always on edge and was just so rude and mean all the fucking time. I honestly believe that he hates everyone that works there and has terrible management ability. I tried to talk to him the other day about not wanting to do weekends and he flipped out. He told all of us that sometimes we are going to have to work 6 days a week and “that’s just the way it is” and it’s um no that’s not acceptable. I don’t get paid enough for that and I’m not going to be dictated to for a job where I’m not even making minimum fucking wage.

I was also extremely sick of being made to feel like I didn’t have choices. I talked to the owner yesterday and she’s like, “Well **** is the manager and you HAVE to listen to her” uh no I don’t have to do shit except pay taxes and die! It wasn’t even her shift but she stuck around to pick a fucking fight!!!! Then, as it was happening, she called and talked to her but couldn’t even answer my text?!?!?!!? Ok well that’s not fair and I was just sick of this bitch ALWAYS having the upper hand!!! The whole fight started because I was wearing flip flops because it’s 100 degrees in there EVERY FUCKING DAY!!! Instead of thinking about why I was wearing flip flops, how about take some fucking responsibility for that! I was fucking hot, too hot and I’m sorry that I was trying to keep cool! If she would’ve asked me to change shoes like I was a human being with feelings, things could’ve gone a completely different way!

It’s just ridiculous to me how awful this fucking bitch has talked to me but it’s even more ridiculous that she’s been ALLOWED to! Then, it’s just decided that I’m going to work at our other location WITHOUT ME and if I don’t want to, then they’d give me a good reference for something else?!?!? I think it’s crap that again, I had no say in it and I was just supposed to go along with it when I told her I didn’t want to. It’s just sad how many people, good people this place has gone through because everyone’s treated like robots, disposable robots that they just use, abuse, and take advantage of until you finally bounce!

All I know is I’m just glad to put this place and all the bullshit behind me. I’ve past up a lot of better paying jobs to stay and I’m not doing that anymore. I’m honestly glad to close this chapter. It sucks that it worked out this way but I knew the other day that things were going too good and something was going to fuck it up. I would’ve never thought that it would result in me finding a whole different job but where there’s time there’s change and I’m going to keep moving forward. I’ve watched so many people come and go that are now in other jobs, better jobs that are doing just fine.

I know that I’m ready for a change. I’m going to be nervous at first being in a new place learning new things and meeting new people but I won’t have to worry about anyone not liking me that are able to go out of their way to make sure to jeopardize my fucking job. I like knowing that I’ll be trained in what I’m allowed to handle customer’s issues without getting in trouble later and I won’t have my balls cut off right in front of me. I’m happy to start over with a clean slate and have a new start because it’s what I’ve been needing for a long time. It’s been a long time coming and it’s finally happened. I know I didn’t want to happen right now but everything happens for a reason and I just didn’t know how much longer I was going to last at that miserable shit hole. I was honestly scared I was going to wake up someday and just say fuck it and never go back, whether I had something else lined up or not. I had lost my zest for the job and just wasn’t into it anymore. It’s boring. There’s no challenge anymore and I wasn’t able to enjoy it anymore. I was always counting the hours until I got to go home and was tired of being sick by the time I left because it was so fucking hot in there. It was similar to being in a car with all the windows rolled up. Just disgustingly hot and unbearable. I knew the other day that my days in that place were definitely numbered. I just wasn’t happy anymore.

Anyways, I’m going to lay down, watch some tv and relax. Everything is working out so I’m not going to let myself be nervous. I’m gonna go in there and rock it out like a boss. I’m excited to up sell stuff and build my confidence back up. It’s so weird that my old job won’t be a part of my day anymore but I’ll get used to it.

Thank you everyone for your support, it really helps. Love you all.