this eating stuff is hard work in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so, I weighed myself yesterday. at bed bath & beyond. and. i’m not where I should be. [well no not after a 2 day relapse]. i’m not that far off though. thing is. they’re weighing me Mon. and they want me to get to a certain #. steph said it’s always the same. and i’m hoping it’ll be [er I mean. i’ll be at the weight they want me to be.at] Mon. cause if not then i’m fuked.
ya know. back when I was actually consciously eating 3 things a day and keeping track of it. blogging it. that would’ve been a good time to weigh me. not now when it’s not my goal. [well now it’s my goal since they said they’re going to. weigh me I mean].
so I’ve been eating [well yeah]. yesterday I had. um Panera lunch w/ my mom & sister. a bit of broccoli [my mom doesn’t want to cook when it’s hot], some cheerios, cherries, a burrito, and 4 pieces of bread. and I don’t like bread. but it’s the thing we have the most of at my house. oh and early yesterday morning like um. 2 a.m. I had a bit of rice which I didn’t like and..........um............some cherries. a bowl of pasta.
on..........tues. I had..........um. a burrito, indian food, 2 boxes of pasta. and I forgot what else. oh berries, cheerios, cake and I think maybe cherries.
I also don’t have money to eat. er I mean to spend on food. pay day’s Mon. and my EBT money comes in the 10th, so. However.......I have a few things to eat at my mom’s. And also. the cherry creek arts fest is this weekend. i’ll get food there. oh i’m mentioning my mom’s cause i’m going there either today or tom.
I hope i’ll weigh enough. I only have 4 #s to go. but I really hope..........
but yeah. this eating stuff is hard work. omygod. i’m not one of those people who like loves food ya know? that’s not me. it’s wow pressure. i’m not good under pressure.