i. a lot happened today a lot was talked about bombardment in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

again. from earlier today:

‘I. well so. we had a meeting today. and I knew a few things that were going to be brought up. like the fact that I don’t eat a lot at the house. [i’m healthy though. I might not look like I weigh a lot but i’m healthy]. and they said they want to weigh me. which i’d blogged about before. they’re going to Mon. which gives me a good amount of time to gain the ‘correct’ amount of weight. which I was going to do anyway.

so steph’s like ‘well then you have enough time to fa**en up’. um thanks for mentioning my size. I really don’t like it when people mention my size. anyone. and i’m like ‘oh thanks’ sarcastically. no I didn’t think she was insulting me. i’m just really sensitive about my size. and then she’s like ‘i’m sorry but you’ve lost a lot of weight’. um. during what time frame exactly? that’s what I don’t get. and what’s her definition of ‘a lot’? cause what she thinks is a lot might be different than what I think is. and for someone like me who’s already small it’s easier to tell then for someone on her who’s. well not.

if anything I’ve gained weight [as I should’ve]. sure a wk. and a day ago but I have. I..........well I won’t put how much but I have. and i’m healthy [other than the protein deficiency thing]. i’ll just say a good amount for me. and I look good [though I don’t like how I look]. I don’t look sick.

oh now they’re worried about me. when i’m actually doing ok. not back in oct. when I actually was sick. I don’t understand.

I mean I don’t eat a lot at the house they’re not wrong there. but what I know what I need and what my body needs. i’m good I got this. I get [well somewhat] why they’re worried but I don’t think they should be as worried as they are about this.

other things were mentioned at the meeting [the fact I don’t do what they want. and my living situation. and the whole safety thing. you people and your stupid safety. sorry] but that’s the main thing I remember. ‘