i didn't forget. i just didn't do it. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

this is also from june 21st:

‘ok so this is why im not honest w/ people.

yeah so I recently got this blue coat. so now I have 2 what I call raincoats for the summer. [yeah. i’m always in layers. i’m really self conscious]. and i’m supposed to wear the blue coat every other day or something. and so when I came out of my room and told steph I was going out [as is sun. is my going out day and today’s sun.] she’s like ‘you’re not wearing it why?’ and i’m like ‘I don’t know’ ‘no why?’ ‘I forget’. no I didn’t forget. I mean my memory’s bad but it’s not that bad. I just didn’t do it. cause as I’ve mentioned if I had it’d make her happy and not only do I not want her to be happy I also don’t want her to be all super reactive. like she is when she’s happy. and i’m not trying to make her life easier. so that’s why.
it feels good to be honest somewhere even if it is in a blog.
so she also asked my if i’d brushed my teeth. which I hadn’t this weekend but I’ve been doing it more often than not, so. and I told her I had cause I didn’t want her to if i’d told her I hadn’t. have me do it right then and there. I also have certain times when i’ll brush them, so. maybe that’s weird maybe it isn’t idk. ‘