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As always haven't written in ages, wanted to write over the past week because I had a bad fight with the hubby and he was hurting me too much but its all settled now, albeit not as I would want to settle it. His idea of resolving issues is shoving it under the carpet and at first I was ok with it but now it bothers me because every couple of months it comes back. Strangely enough my best friend is going through the same shit with her boyfriend however they are not married yet. My sincere advice to her was run away when you can coz sometimes love gets lost and converted to resentment with constant agitation especially if you as a person have little tolerance for bearing negative emotions. I reached my limit this time and was so close to calling it quits and all the while he was annoyed but calm inside much unlike how he used to be in the past. This was good to hear but annoying as hell as well. He didn't speak to me for 12 days just because I didn't start conversation. In my world this is not happening mate.... na na na... you don't do that with your wife, this is bloody emotional abuse!!! I dragged it on but couldn't manage after 12 days which is when I sent him an email saying if you are so comfortable with your life without me why don't you leave me, ofcourse my email wasn't as blunt as this statement, it listed all the things I've done for him, ways in which I've changed and adapted to this relationship and expectations out of the relationship, along with blaming him for the frequent disruptions to family life that his over sensitivity causes. His response was he does not know how to handle his emotions when he gets hurt, however he knows that I am at the end of my patience now. I was amazed to see him show a sense of humor in our argument... its very unlike him to do that and I almost appreciated it and got more annoyed that he is laughing while I am burning. Anywho I've asked for us to go for marriage counselling and he has refused, after all he is a 3 personality type and its all about his image, how dare I tell him something isn't perfect in him!!! I'll to figure a way around that somehow afterall I'm the intellectual one in this relationship.....lol... lets see how we go!!!

In other news my secondment got extended till feb with a prospect of permanency at that time, I want to trust them because I can see them training me for my role a lot more than they ever did so fingers crossed and please pray for me. My work is appreciated by my leaders though and thats goods to know. No news on the citizenship application progress yet, I really want to get it soon so that I can start studying and working towards the career that I can see myself enjoying in the future hopefully

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