omygod it makes so much sense now in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so I was reading up. on like sleep or something recently I don’t remember what. but it somehow read [er read. led] it somehow led to my reading up on insomnia. it was an article on WebMD. and this lady talked about her experience w/ not sleeping well..........and. um. actually it was on health.com. oh wait now I remember. I was searching tired but not sleep. cause I like never get sleepy. but i’m tired all the damn time. and so it led me to the article. and the lady said. something eluding to the fact that she’d tired but not sleepy. I think. and it talked about chronic insomnia and as I was reading it ti sounded a little bit like me. I think I might have chronic insomnia. I’ve had broken sleep for the past. like 6 months. at least. [I guess going to sleep earlier would you know help. I don’t believe I meds, so. no but whenever I go to sleep earlier I’ve been up by like 11 and then i’m lying there in my bed for 2, 3 hrs. bored as all hell cause I don’t want them to know i’m awake. and then I get annoyed cause i’m waiting all that time. it’s an anxiety thing. so. that’s why I don’t often do that]. though I did read an article on WebMD.
and in that article it talked about insomnia and depression.
oh and also. I was doing math recently adding up my. how much like. iron I get [actually i’m good on iron for like. a month] and such. and turns out one of the signs of calcium deficiency is insomnia. and but. see the thing is I don’t feel like I have insomnia. to me insomnia is where something’s bothering you and it’s keeping you up. or want to sleep but can’t. [well I guess that gos w/ me being tired but never sleepy]. I guess i’m just so used to this. that it’s like. I don’t think anything of it anymore. I think also I have anxiety-induced insomnia [I know what to do about it, so. but if anyone relates please ............that’s ok. er. I mean...........wow can’t think. i’m not explaining myself well here].
wow. it makes so much sense now.