it's about us not them in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

well g*damnit. so I saw my emotions dr. today. and it was. it was ok. idinno. I told her about karlye. and. what happened. [well she knows karlye left of her own accord she doesn’t know how]. and she [the dr.] knows how I feel about it. but not all of it not. what’s in my blog entries.
and so the dr.’s like. ‘why are you suffering for her?’. ‘her’ in this instance being karlye. bc it’s not about karlye. ya know. I read recently. that when someone um. goes we make it about us and not about them. and we do. I mean a lot of people have a service for that person. talk about them. tell stories. things like ‘I remember this one my friend did this really crazy thing but it turned out to be hilarious. he was a funny guy’ if the person in question was funny and did crazy things.
bc I’ve been there. I know i’m circle talking here. no I think. it’s bc I want people to suffer otherwise. I can’t help them I can’t relate to them. and since she left she’s not suffering anymore [well she might be up there idon’t know. but I like to think she isn’t] and since she isn’t. I can’t help her. and so I can’t. relate to that. and so I feel alone. and I don’t like that.
but there are plenty of people here to help. but I don’t want someone else I want her. like the song says. I want you [her] back.
just cause she’s left doesn’t mean everyone else has. it just feels like it.