you can call me queen bee in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

royals, lorde.

I love. this. when I get to have it. I love it. this is the side of me that when most people first meet me they don’t know about.
I play games I manipulate people I control people. yeah i’m not as nice as everyone thinks I am. but playing games. makes me feel. confident. and satisfied. and i’m not like that a lot. yeah sometimes. I treat people like objects. like they don’t even have feelings. [what’s interesting is that i’m careful w/ objects]. i’m not proud of admitting it but i’m proud of it when I get to do it. I feel powerful and like I accomplished something.

I only wish people wouldn’t stop me. [well this part of me does].