Everything happens for a reason in Adventures in paradise

I found myself a bit down last night, in light of a drag queen who I’ve known for years but who clearly does not know me at all.

(S)he’s been wanting to hook up with me for a while now. I have no real issue hooking up with drag queens, so long as they are a guy during the act haha. But I kept putting it off with her, and after last night, I’m quite glad I did.

(S)he was having a go at my Grindr profile and picture, sending me a message that read, “Not into wired? This coming from the guy with the darkest circles under his eyes I’ve ever seen!”
Of course, I needed to defend myself. Anyone who knows even half an inch of me knows how anti-drugs I’ve always been personally. I don’t care if others do it, but I’m just looking out for myself by putting ‘no wired guys thanks’ on my profile, because the last thing I need is some psycho who can’t handle his meds causing me harm and acting insane (like my friend Ryan was that time).

So I replied to him, “I’ve never done drugs in my life thankyou very much!”
She replied with, “The guys you used to live with were dealers. Nice try.”

Fuck I hate bitches like that. First of all, it was news to me that I had drug dealer housemates! I mean, it wouldn’t really surprise me if Ayden was one, but I can’t think who else may have been. If it is true, they were damn good at keeping it a secret. I remember Andrew kicked Josh1 out for ‘drug use’ but I never saw him with drugs ever and he was as stunned as I was when he was asked to leave via email while Andrew was overseas. Could it have been Brad? That would be surprising, but I’m just thinking that this drag queen used a plural term, so it had to be guys I lived with together.
Anyway. I was getting angry. I replied with, “I don’t appreciate being called a liar. I’ve never even tried a cigarette!” (Which is true).
Then (s)he blocked me! ^rolls eyes^

So much for that bj (s)he wanted to give me haha!

Man I was angry. More so about the personal attack on me apparently being a druggo simply because I have bags under my eyes and apparently lived with twink drug dealers.
At least I can say my life isn’t not-interesting. Well, the life Alexei (this drag queen) thinks I live!

Stupid bitch.
I’ve known her forever, but I was so angry at her accusation that I blocked and unfriended her on Facebook and Twitter, both cos of that and because she blocked me because she thought I was lying.

I’ve always had bags under my eyes! It’s an unfortunate part of life for me, and I did work graveyard shifts for over 4 years, so I never got any Vitamin D other than my walk home in the mornings. I’m sure that’s enough to drain the colour from anyone’s face.

Either way, it made me self-conscious and I changes my profile picture to one that I thought looked okay. Or better.

I sat there last night, so pissed off. I hate, HATE having my character associated with rumours like this. I’m too old for this trivial rumour bullshit.
I compared myself in that moment to how Gamble from The Real Housewives Of Melbourne must have felt when she was accused of stripping for Heroin. LOL.

I decided in my own head that Alexei is just a jealous, washed-up drag queen and the only reason she’s back in Queensland is because they couldn’t stand her down south.
That made me feel a little better. My thoughts being bitchy haha.

I was still hurt though. I’m not a mean person. I’m not even IN the fucking scene anymore and Alexei ,(real name Thom) thinks this shit about me. And who knows how many other bitchy queens she’s told her rumour too. I’m an innocent bystander associated because of whomever those previous housemates were.

I don’t know if he’s noticed Ive blocked him, but I’m sure he will eventually.
I can only hope that other people don’t believe everything they hear and aren’t as gullible and impressionable as I am.

I was so upset I even messaged Andrew about it. He told me drag queens have been pulling that kind of shit for years and didn’t believe any of it, nor did he believe he had drug-dealer tenants.
Surprisingly, it helped a little. Andrew’s been around the block a few times. I can give him that much.

In other news, Vish and James have just been over pretty much every night. Vish was meant to cook last night but we went out to an Indian restaurant instead, but learned it closes on Wednesdays (what the?) so we went to Grilld instead. We picked up Angelo on the way too, and it’s always good to see him.
We went to the 24hr coffee place and I shouted him a hot chocolate even though he didn’t want one, and after I got home, I got a text from him thanking me and that it was good to see me. He’s a good kid. Really is.

Obviously all this drag queen shit happened right after that or else I wouldn’t be ranting right now about someone that shouldn’t even be in my damn head! I should be mature enough to not let things like this bother me. I amaze myself that it still does. That lies can hurt.

I even thought to myself that if I had just gone to bed instead of checking Grindr, I wouldn’t have seen any of this.

I guess as they say, everything happens for a reason.

Last updated May 28, 2015