this is. scary. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

not um. not in a bad way exactly. so I posted an ad on a popular website explaining my situation that it had been 2 yrs. and 4 months since my ex and I broke up and I think i’m ready to get back out there. but that i’m scared and nervous and this is new to me. and that i’m not ready for a relationship.
which it is. and I am. I. I don’t know that I’ve ever been in this place before. er well ok so I have I just didn’t. really fully understand it at the time. which ya know honestly i’m not ready for a relationship.
I posted thad this morning I think. I’ve gotten about 10 - 20 replies. a few ones I’ve liked. a couple were like ‘well it’s not that long’ or ‘wow it must’ve been pretty hard if it’s been that long’. and then w/ some of the others they haven’t said much about my situation. the ones I liked. the guys were understanding about my situation. which is what I was hoping for.