Shouldn't have done that... in Boredoms
- April 29, 2015, 3:20 a.m.
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So, I watched the video of Judas I got on Monday and it…was odd. I didn’t like myself at all. I went into it trying to see me the way everyone has been saying I was but I couldn’t. I sounded so flat and nasally and it was uncomfortable. I told a friend about this reaction and she said I just have a bias against myself and so that’s why it sounded like that to me. I’m trying very hard to hold on to that, to try and take my own opinion out of this and just trust the others who have told me I was good. I just can’t get rid of that nagging voice that’s telling me they’re just being nice because they think I’m pitiful or whatever. (Sigh) What the fuck, me?
damienne ⋅ April 29, 2015
your reaction is natural and not just a bias thing. seeing videos of myself (or hearing recordings of my voice) is so, so jarring and uncomfortable, and that's not even when i'm performing/out on an emotional limb.
i can't speak for everyone's reactions but i certainly wasn't being nice. today i finished party down and there's this scene where one of the main lady-characters is telling one of the main dude-characters she watched a movie he was in as a kid, and said something along the lines of, "you never told me you were actually GOOD at acting. and you're REALLY GOOD. you need to get back into it." and that made me think of you.
ICanDoASumbersault damienne ⋅ April 29, 2015
Thank you, that made me feel better. :-)