J still sick and other news in Day to day life from a woman that turned 60 in Oct 2014 and who lives on a farm and Retired on January 2, 2016. I plan to do more sewing, work outside in the yard and just enjoy my retirement.

Took Jacob back to the Dr yesterday morning, then to get x-rays. X-rays showed some pneumonia in lower right lung. Stronger meds and breathing treatments. Will take him back on Wednesday to see if his oxygen level is better, so prayers will be appreciated.

J’s sister “A” went with us too. Well sorta as she drove her own car and met us at the big Medical Office attached to the hospital. J really wanted Sheesh to be there and was watching for her car behind us on the 30 mile trip. The xray went much smoother than I anticipated as I was afraid he would be afraid and refuse. Not to be and prayers for answered as he followed directions of the two ladies that were doing the xray machine. They took a couple or maybe four to get the best and clearest and then off we headed to eat lunch in different city. A joined us and then she headed to the beauty supply store and we headed home.

J is on a more powerful antibiotic this time and its a capsule. He had a lot of trouble getting it down and I ended up getting out the applesauce and that works great!! When the xray results got back to the doctor’s office they called me to tell me the results and wanted him on breathing treatments. We don’t have a nebulizer but A does, so I went back to town and picked up the medicine for the breathing treatments. Shortly after, Owen brought the machine down and the process has begun.

I take him back on Wednesday. I was supposed to take my dad to VA appointments today but I called my brother and asked if he could help me out. I want to make sure that J has his breathing treatments every 4 hours today and tomorrow for sure. He said he would do it or have another one of his family members to take dad. I was relieved. It is really my turn to take dad, but I have been the one taking him a lot before I started asking my brother to help out. Guess it will all be ok.

I am going to go get J signed up again for Medicaid. That brings internal stress for me to the nth degree but I paid $100 for his meds yesterday. I need to re-enter the world of nightmares and get him back on it. Not sure why they cancelled it and he’d only had it for a year when they did but it didn’t surprise me and I HATE dealing with that crap. I can’t help but be amazed on how many people seem to have it and have hardly any issues getting it as far as I know. I just don’t get it why it is so difficult for J to get it.

Wrote the above and put on private until I could get back here. I believe that God took a hold of me after writing the last paragraph above and stuck a spiritual rod in my backbone and motivation to get the paperwork together for J and get the application done....this MORNING!! No more dreading. No more hesitation and no more expecting the worse. Get tough and do what needs to be done for your youngest child. He deserves it and so do I. Peace of mind and knowing his medical needs are covered as far as expenses for medicine and care. I went through papers and found everything I knew they would need and some I didn’t know if they might need. Walked into the office with my gold envelope of papers, including his birth certificate and diagnosis on his disability. No one else was in the waiting area and the sweetest young woman began helping me right away. I filled out papers until I thought my hand and fingers were going to fall off, but I got them all filled out, she made copies of some of the documents I had with me and told me I should receive a phone call within 4 to 5 days for a telephone interview. I only used my cell number and not my home phone cause in 2011 when I went through this, they called the house and J answered and told them he didn’t need medical care. Next thing I knew, a letter arrived and told us, he no longer needed that service. I called the number on the letter and they told me what day and time they called and it was a Friday when J is off work. Oy Vay! Of course he told them he didn’t need medical care and who ever called and talked to him, should have known better. They didn’t and I had to re-start the process AGAIN. Within a year he received a letter telling us he was no longer qualified. I just gave up. No energy to start again. My pride and ego was draggin low and I just said forget it.
Attitude change is what prompted me in addition to J being sick. His doctor’s appointment yesterday was a huge reality check for me, as I can afford to take care of occasional medicine and medical expenses, however, my well isn’t very deep so it is time to ensure he is covered. My husband and I have worked all our lives and I see many out there getting these benefits that do not have the family background of anyone working. Still, the receive the benefits. J is deserving and these benefits will continue for him after I am gone. That in itself give me relief. I have a plan to keep from missing any paperwork that is required to be filled out and returned for him to continue being eligible. Dealing with this in the past created more junk mail than I ever thought possible. So, when I got something that wasn’t “junk” I am sure I ignored it and moved on. So in fact, the ending of benefits before was my fault. It will not happen again and I have a huge file with dividers that will be dedicated to this. I will find a place for it and label each section and make myself open every single piece of mail they send. Trash those I don’t need and keep those that we do need. I think I’m finally becoming a responsible adult. pssst

Bought more white vinegar on the way home from above and made a gallon of weed/grass killer. Used an empty liquid dishwashing bottle and it works wonderfully. Point and squirt!! Can’t wait to out later and see the dandelions dying!! And grass too that is in the gravel and along the drive.

Ok, I’m going to end this entry and do something constructive. I wish I had a housekeeper as I hate using my time to do housework. I don’t mind laundry and don’t mind working myself silly outside but I HATE housework. It never stays and something always seems to need to cleaned, washed, dusted or moved. Blah!!

Take care and God Bless and thank you all for your prayers for J.