um so. lonely. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

ya know. I want a friend here that. er. I mean I want to hang out w/ someone who isn’t paid to help me. steph and jenn are, alexis is, dr. dumke is. no and they’re all nice people. they’re intelligent. I have my mom. we have a good relationship now. well we have for awhile. so that’s not new it just sounds like it is. and I’ve been getting together w/ my sister lately. and that’s. going well. but that’s a different dynamic then like a friend. it’s hard to meet people when you don’t work/go to school. or church. I’ve actually never gone to church. I’ve been to weddings, xmas eve service. jus sayin, it’s another place to meet people.
it’s also hard to meet people when you’re. restricted as to how many hrs. you’re allowed out. yeah..........that’s where i’m at. I’ve been going out more. well. I’ve gone to the gas station/corner store/get n go [w/e you call it] twice by myself. and things cost money. and it’s not often that I go somewhere and don’t spend money.
idk. like I have friends I just don’t see them. Mark’s in aur.........er I mean Arizona Susie’s in Utah evan’s in CA. there was Pat but well we all know what happened there. and even when Mark was here we didn’t get together that often.
i’m not really looking for advice or anything i’m just. idinno I’ve been lonely lately. the only time i’m by myself is when i’m getting ready or at night or when I. um. i’m at my mom’s as when i’m at my mom’s I go out. used to be that I was by myself all the time. well ok not all the time. most of it. save for when I was w/ my ex or evan. or at the bar. or the weekly lunches w/ my mom. it’s funny I’ve been lonely since i’m rarely by myself. it’s also hard to do stuff people when most work during the day. and I don’t go out at night anymore.

Last updated January 09, 2016