Decision has been made. in Since OD is shutting down....

I’m going back to my old job. I’ve been up all night tossing and turning thinking about everything and decided that it’s best for me to go back to my old job. I know that it’s a bunch of bullshit but it’s what I’m used to and I don’t have to worry about a strict dress code, wearing a hat, not getting the hours I want/need and having to worry about closing. I text my boss and she said she will always welcome me back so I’m going to worry tonight at 4:45 (in about an hour an half) and take a big order somewhere and then I’m pretty sure I’m working tomorrow too.

I feel really guilty for going through the hassle of getting hired at the new place and don’t know what I’m going to tell them but stuff there is way different than what I’m used to and just couldn’t see myself ever adapting to their changes. I’m glad that I ventured out of my comfort zone as I needed to know if I was missing out and I’m not at all. I’m right where I need to be, at least for now. I can’t say that I’m going to do this job forever and will probably consider getting into something else in the next few months but I’m glad that I did leave, even if it was for 2 days haha…

Right now I’m just doing laundry as I have no clean shirts to wear and I’ll be dammed if I’m going to wear dirty clothes! I haven’t been able to do laundry all week and they were replacing the flooring in the laundry room so I’m glad to be getting it done now. I’m going to be returning the black slacks that I had to buy for the new job as I don’t need them anymore and would like to have the money put back on my credit card. I knew when I got sent home because I was wearing the wrong kind of black pants right then I was having second thoughts about the job but wasn’t ready to accept it yet.

I am glad that I get to go back and I will have the schedule I want like I did before. At least there I don’t have to worry about not getting the right hours or days I want to work and they listen to what I want for a shift. I like knowing I will make enough money to survive and won’t have to sit around stressing like I did last night when the new place sent me home at 6pm. It was nice to sit down and watch tv but it felt really wrong that I was home at that time not making money.

It really means a lot to me that my boss is letting me come back, as I knew she would but it still feels nice. I’m glad that she was so understanding and I get to work tonight because I don’t have a lot of cash and I need to buy groceries. I’m pretty sure I’ll work tomorrow and then get my Sunday and Monday to just rest. I may go visit my parents but I won’t be out there as long as I was last week because I didn’t feel like I got any kind of a break from everything. I need my days off so I can catch up on sleep and just hang out and watch tv.

I’m gonna go clean and eat something..more later.