Anxiety setting in. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I have less than 24 hours before I have to start orientation for the new job. I feel very anxious but not enough to change my mind. I had a helluva time getting to sleep last night even though I was super tired because I just couldn’t shut my mind off. I honestly don’t know why I’m so nervous, it’s the same time of place as where I’m at now and I will do the exact same thing. I have been thinking about all kinds of things like am I making the right decision? And I do believe that I am. I am honestly looking forward to getting into something new.

I talked to my boss yesterday morning as I worked at our other location and she was there when I showed up and she said that I will be allowed to come back and kept bugging me about where I was going. I won’t tell anyone simply because I just don’t think it’s their business. I just want to worry about getting there and not feeling uncomfortable and awkward anymore.

It’s relieving to know that I will be allowed to come back but will probably lose out on my quarterly bonus until I’ve been there for 6 months and that does bother me. I’m going to try and look at it as it’s not as much of a back up plan as I originally wanted which will put a bigger fire under me to make the new job work out. I am just really nervous right now and actually can’t wait until tomorrow so I can stop being nervous. Ugh, I hate this.

I wrote all this yesterday. I’m about to leave to start orientation. Wish me luck folks.