Monday at 10am!!! in Since OD is shutting down....

Alright so I'm definitely in a better mood today then I was yesterday. I wasn't in the best mood yesterday at work because I am so fucking sick of looking at that place and putting up with assholes. I asked a couple of different people if they would stay late for me and they wouldn't even though I've covered for them multiple times. I text the boss and ask her and she said that it wouldn't be fair for her to let me go early since she's not there and blah blah blah. I am just stuck no matter what! So I worked my shift and then came home.

My night ended up not being too bad because people were tipping pretty good and my friend that I worked with asked me in a very nice way if I wanted food and he made me some. We were texting and he told me that I’m a good person but I just need to learn to relax. I have spent so much time caring about this place when no one there gives any real fucks about me and I’m just fucking over it.

I finally broke down and called the new place. He said, “I was just getting ready to call you” and said for me to ride out the weekend because they don’t like to train on those days because it’s just too busy but for me to come in Monday at 10!!!!!! I had him on speaker so my brother and his girlfriend could hear all of this as well. I’m super excited. I am just fucking stoked!!!

So I’ve smoked like 3 cigs today and feel sick. I am just not cut out to be a smoker but I’m glad I reminded myself!! Ugh, I just feel super lightheaded!!! No more for me! Thank God I don’t have a whole pack. I have like 2 sitting on my counter but they are gonna go in the trash, yuck!!! How did I do that shit for 10 years!!!

I’m not exactly sure what I’m going to tell my boss but I plan to let her know something soon. I’m not gonna go into great detail about anything but I do want to leave on good terms just in case I would ever want to come back. All I know is that I have to do what’s best for me and make better money doing the job I want to do. I know that whatever I tell her she’s going to be a bitch with no compassion and tell me to get to work but decision has been made.

I have to leave in like 10 minutes so I’m gonna lay down and hope I feel better as I honestly want to throw up. Ugh, I’m never smoking again.