3/11 in --

My weight seems to be stuck at 127, even after working out 4 or 5 days a week and watching what I eat. Which is fine. I look fine. The problem is that a few of my favorite dresses don’t fit me in the chest. I’m dearly hoping that when I’m done nursing Lorelei I lose some weight there. I would hate to have to get rid of them because they’re never going to fit my chest. ;(
No period, breastfeeding, and being 25 are not conducive to weight loss, apparently.

If something fits in the waist, it’s too small in the bust, and if something fits in the bust, it’s too big in the waist. Bleh.

Jacob has an interview today at the regular high school (he works at the alternative school right now). I hope he gets it. Some of the other adults and administration at his current school is just… really crappy. It’s not the kids in these schools, it’s the adults.

I had an anxiety attack last night. Lorelei woke me up at 3am (she doesn’t sleep well at night, or by herself ever). I don’t remember the last time I got quality sleep (she wakes up at least 4 or 5 times), and that, coupled with nursing, triggers my anxiety. It sucks. I had to have Jacob take her for awhile, and of course she was unhappy because she was tired and wanted to nurse. I really don’t know why it happens, but it does. I had such terrible anxiety when nursing Cannon while I was pregnant with Lorelei that I had to wean him. I’d love to wean Lorelei, but she’s too dependent on nursing and she’s never taken a bottle. I think she will sleep better when we do though. She needs better sleep, and I do too. The thing is, she used to sleep so well, and she slept by herself. I’m not sure what happened, but somewhere along the way she just couldn’t sleep by herself and without nursing (she sleeps on top of me mostly). She also used to take a pacifier and she doesn’t now. She hasn’t for awhile.

Anyway,

I finished Bad Feminist. Excellent book.

The weather here has been amazing, I’ve been wearing dresses and skirts everyday! I finally feel like myself!

One thing I forgot that I hate about warmer weather is bugs. So much ew. There was a giant beetle in the bathroom this morning and I had to have Jacob come in and kill it. D:

Cannon just said the word “happy.” I didn’t know he knew that word!

Last updated March 11, 2015