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Alright so the treadmill. OMFG. So the guy showed up this morning 2 hours late and informs me that he’s unable to take it because I don’t have the fucking box! I am just in disbelief after waiting for him for several days and how much of a fucking headache this has been! Well him and I got into it and he said, “fuck you” and walked out the door so I filed a complaint against him. Well, I ended up getting my brother to help me take the damn thing down to the actual UPS store and ship it off. It ended up costing me $40 but at least the fucking thing is out of my house and I’ve requested a full refund as I want the money put back on my credit card and to be done with the whole fiasco. I’m pissed at myself for throwing away the box as I trusted that it wouldn’t have turned out to be the biggest piece of shit on the planet and didn’t think I would need it again and it ended up costing me money because of it. Oh well, just glad it’s gone.

It almost ruined my day off as I got another tattoo last night and couldn’t find anything to put on it so I was pissed that I had to wait for the jackhole to get here before I could run errands. I finally got up to Walmart and then got to take a nap. I just got pizza and am now just watching tv and enjoying my day off because starting tomorrow, I will be working a full 40 hours this week and I’m scheduled to work at our other location on Sunday again but I’m gonna tell them I can’t do it because it’s just not worth it because they aren’t as busy and I only made $26 in tips last night.

It was a pretty good weekend though. I slept with Chris on Friday night, worked all day Saturday and then got my period while I was at work Saturday. I was definitely stressed about it but then was so relieved when it came. I don’t plan to have sex anymore until I get back on BC as I don’t want something to happen as I’m in no position to have something happen. I know I’ve been kinda careless and just feel like it can’t happen anyway but I need to be more responsible as I don’t like having to stress about additional problems. I admit that I’m not adamant about men wearing condoms because they make me sore so much quicker and I just don’t think anything is going to happen but as soon as my period is over, I’m going to start taking the pill and if I do have sex, I will make sure a condom is used. I don’t want to risk a disease or anything else and it’s not like me to be this irresponsible and if something did happen, I would hate myself.

I honestly don’t think I’m going to have sex for awhile. I don’t really know about trying to be FWB with anyone and I just don’t want to have to worry about the BC crap and the side affects again. I’m being reminded why I didn’t have sex for so long and I plan on getting back to that. I know that I have sexual needs and that’s why I’ve been very active lately but I just can’t put myself in any position for something stupid to happen either. It’s just not worth it. I just don’t to have to worry about it. I know that I love sex but the consequences are not worth it whatsoever.

It’s been absolutely beautiful here the past few days and I think it’s going to continue so I’m pretty happy about that. It makes me in a lot better mood and makes me want to be more active. I honestly can’t wait for it to be Summer and hopefully be able to do more stuff outdoorsy.

I’m sad that the treadmill idea didn’t work out but I may look for another one but in the mean time, I might actually have to start going to the gym. I do pay that every month and it would make a lot of sense to actually use what I’m paying for. I just enjoyed having my own treadmill so I can get on it anytime I want and then hop in the shower. I’m so pissed that it turned out to be the headache that it was because I had wanted one for so long. It just pisses me off that things worked out this way and yes I could have a replacement but what if that one ends up being a piece of shit too? Then go through the process of waiting for it to be picked up and deal with a disgruntled UPS guy again? No thanks.

It’s been so nice just having the day off. It’s gone way too fast and I really didn’t get much done but I have plenty to do tomorrow, starting with oil change at 1pm. I also need to mail something, do laundry, fill out something for my landlord and get some more house cleaning done.

I do miss college. It’s been 2 weeks now and I feel like a part of me is missing because school was part of my routine. I’m still happy with my choice to drop out as I get a lot more sleep and don’t have the headache anymore but I feel incomplete because it was such a part of my life for so long. I didn’t really want to drop out but I couldn’t imagine going on like I was either. It does bother me that I’m a drop out and worry that when I do go to find a better job that it will harder without my degree but I do know a lot of people who never went to college that make decent money too. I also might end up a full fledged manager at my job too.

I am so happy to be at home and plan to get to bed early tonight. I’m debating on whether I want to shower or wait until tomorrow. It was 65 here today and earlier I was freezing so I turned the heat on. I hate when it’s colder in my house than it is outside! Ugh, it drives me crazy!!!

I’ve showered and put the wash in. I feel better now that I’ve showered. I’m so glad to just be able to sit here. My week starts tomorrow and I’m hoping it’s gonna go fast and I make lots of money. I’ve spent a lot of money recently and I need to put some back in the bank. I didn’t even buy groceries for the week and I haven’t paid the cable bill yet. I need to get these things done tomorrow though.

It would be nice to have people to hang out with more. I went to the park on Sunday with my niece and that girl that I didn’t want hired at my work came. I invited her and her kids and it was a pleasant time. She seems a lot nicer than I gave her credit for and I honestly hope she sticks around for awhile. I doubt we’ll become really good friends or anything but it was just nice to have someone with kids come with us and hang out.

So I think I’m gonna watch Zombieland and just relax..