evan issues, again. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

um. idk. the other night what I thought he said scared me. I thought he said he was going to make a phone that looked exactly like mine. he doesn’t have the money to do that though. or much else. I told him it worried/scared me/ I didn’t like that but beyond that we didn’t really talk about it. [apparently there’s a way for someone to get your contact info off your phone. and I don’t mean just the phone company people].

he also asked me if I was willing to leave where i’m at for him. and i’m not. he didn’t ask me if I would just if I was willing to. I told him that bothered me and I also told him i’m not.

when things like this happen. I feel like. I don’t know who he is. i’m holding onto him for a variety of reasons even though it’s clearly not good for me at times. he’s not a bad person he just. there’s something going on w/ him psychologically that i don’t understand. and also. clearly there’s something going on w/ me for me to be w/ him. it’s like someone who’s an alcoholic going to a bar nightly. and then drinking more. and being surrounded by others that do. [I as that person]. the people they’re surrounded by aren’t bad people. it just means they might have a problem. w/ alcohol. Pat did apparently and he was the best person I knew.

it’s Jekyll & hyde the phantom and. Christine. I like dark stories a lot and I. relate to them.

Last updated May 29, 2015