“LOVELORN: STRANDED” in "RESTLESS: POETICALLY-SPEAKING"

My love,
there’s been a major setback between us lately.
The air is feeling tight and I am stuffed,
dying to break free.
How can you act like everything’s alright?

I miss the air that I used to breathe,
‘though I’m not always sure about you and me.
Why are we still here?
Our souls entwined, yet also struggling to be freed.
I wonder if the world can see
how my whole life has been sinking with fear.

My love,
don’t try to to find me.
I don’t even think you will.
Her existence between us has made this tough,
and so has another one with me.
This love is severely poisoned; it has to be killed.

I may return,
or perhaps I should be gone for good.
We have fallen and (been) burned.
I think I’ve done all I could.
You’ve taken everything I gave,
yet this can no longer be saved.

My love,
I think we should call this whole thing off.
This has been long overdue,
even when I still can’t imagine being without you.
It’s just a matter of ‘when’
before both of us can no longer pretend.

Is this the end of our days?
Perhaps I’ll have the answer – once we are face-to-face.

R.
(Jakarta, 27/1/2015 – 5:00 pm)