Tired. in Since OD is shutting down....

I am so fucking glad it’s almost the weekend. I went to my training thing for the care giver job (I’m still not sure if I will take it or not) and it only last until 1pm yesterday instead of 5 so I’m pissed that I didn’t make as much money as I originally planned and then I only made $50 last night at work and got cut about 10pm. I was happy because it made it easier to get to bed at a decent hour and I was starving but money wise, I didn’t make shit. It’s super annoying when I finally get a chunk of bills paid and then money doesn’t come in like it should so it sucks my bank account down to nothing. It’s so frustrating. At the end of the day, it’s pretty much impossible to get ahead!

My class today was good but then I was supposed to go to lunch with Heather but she is in the process of moving and her house isn’t ready yet so we are supposed to hang out later but I am so fucking tired and have to get up early tomorrow for my class and work that I will probably try and hang out with her another time. I got my homework done for tomorrow, made lasagna and now I plan to just relax and maybe even lay down before I got to work tonight. I just feel so drained and I think it’s because I quit taking my diet drink stuff (I ran out and refuse to pay $40 for more when I will be getting my diet pill soon and I can’t take them together) so I’m just super tired and ready for a break.

I really hope to make some decent money today and tomorrow as I’d like some money for the weekend and I kind want to get my nails done. I really like getting french tips so I may get that done depending on how much money I make. I also paid like $56 today on my car so car payment is good and I even got asked when I was going to trade it in. Um, not for awhile. I just want to know what it’s like to not have a fucking car payment, even for a few months. I am so fucking sick of paying that I could fucking scream! I am so glad that I’m almost done though. A lot of good has come out of the whole car fiasco and for that, I am truly grateful.

So I’ve ordered a really pretty shirt off Amazon.com, it was like $40 (which is a lot of money) but I just had to have it and it should be here on Saturday. I would really like to get dressed up and go do something sometime this weekend but it probably won’t happen because I won’t make enough to get my nails done, won’t get my shirt in time or I won’t have anyone to hang out with. Ugh, the struggle.

My boss was kinda pissing me off last night. Sometimes I like it when those people are around and other times, I’m really happy that they aren’t around much. I’ve also realized that with my car being so close to being paid off, I really do need to think about looking into other jobs. I just worry that I won’t be as content working somewhere else and I know that I’m not completely ready to get into something else. I don’t feel stuck but I do feel comfortable. I do keep my eyes and ears open for jobs though. I just like what I do and I really can’t imagine doing anything else but I want something where I’d make more hourly and not have to worry about tips. Ugh, I don’t know.

I think I’m gonna go take a little nap before work. More later.