Beautiful weather! in Since OD is shutting down....

The weather has been absolutely beautiful today and yesterday! It’s about 74 right now and I’m completely loving it and it makes me so happy to know that Spring is coming very soon!!!

I was gonna to to the gym today but just felt really tired, my back was hurting and ended up putting on pajamas and watched tv for awhile. I just got out of the shower and gonna leave for work in about an hour an a half.

My weekend was pretty good. I worked Friday and then Saturday from noon to 4pm. It’s been going pretty good but it’s still making me think about looking for something else simply because I know I’m ready for a change. I like what I do and for the most part enjoy my job but I still worry that if I stay there, I’m gonna be too comfortable to leave. Ugh, decisions.

My brother still doesn’t get it about not getting ahold of me when he needs something. He texted me Sunday asking to borrow my $70 crock pot and at first I said yes but then I remembered all the times he’s borrowed stuff, wouldn’t give it back, and how much of a war it would create so I just had to say no. He brags that he makes so much money but still plays like he’s broke. Too fucking bad. He can go buy a damn crock pot just like I had to do. He’s burned this bridge just too many times and I just don’t feel comfortable with him having anything of mine anymore. It’s really ridiculous when you can’t even trust borrowing shit to your brother who lives like 50 feet away but there’s been too many times where I’ve done that shit and he will come up with 100 different reasons why he’s keeping my shit and has even told me that the cops won’t do anything about it!

He also text me yesterday asking if I had class this morning and I didn’t bother to respond as I know he was trying to find a ride for him or his girlfriend and I’m not about that shit. I did that for them the other day and didn’t even get so much as a thank you even though if I needed a ride, I’d have to call a taxi or pay him very well to help me out. I’ve decided that when he text asking for shit, I just don’t bother to respond anymore because I’ve tried every approach to make him understand that I’m not going to be the one he calls when he needs something and he ignores it so now, I’m gonna just blow him off and then maybe it’ll sink in. I just don’t know why things have to be this way but it’s really fucking old.

So today is the day that I’ve started to eat better, again. I really fucking wish my Belviq would come. I keep reading online about how much it’s helped other people and this waiting is driving me bat-shit crazy! I know it’s only been 15 days but I’m not a patient person. I know it could take until next week and that’s why I wanna just go buy my weight loss stuff but I just know as soon as I buy it, I’ll get the call that my Belviq is here and then my weight loss stuff will end up going to waste. It’s $40 for a jug of it and that’s just too much money to throw away. Gah, I just can’t stand this waiting! I’m also annoyed with myself that I didn’t go the gym today because the weather is so nice that I wouldn’t have had to worry about getting sick but I was just so tired.

I got my schedule and they put me on 2-8pm on Sunday and that’s a no go. Sunday’s are my chill/homework day so I’m gonna have to ask if I can maybe just do Saturday or something. I have too much shit I gotta get done on Sundays and shit that has to be submitted by midnight that I just can’t be at work until 8 or 9pm and then try to get homework done. At the end of the day, I’m just too tired, stressed, and sometimes grumpy to really plan to do homework. I just can’t be at work all the time, especially now because I’m already noticing that I need to concentrate more with homework as I’m already not doing as great as I should be because by the time I sit down and do it, I’m tired and annoyed so I rush through it. Ugh, I wish there was more hours in the fucking day!

My weekend went okay except I had moments of boredom and was frustrated that I didn’t have anyone to hang out with. I could go to my brother’s house but all they do is just sit and watch tv and that’s what I do here. I haven’t heard from that one guy that hung out with my a couple of times which sucks because I actually enjoyed his company. Ugh, I just don’t know why it has to be so hard to find people to hang out with! I would even be happy with someone coming over just to watch tv with me. I know that i don’t want a relationship at all but it would just be nice to have someone to do stuff with sometimes. Even a movie once in a while, or go get dessert somewhere ya know?

I’m anxious to get to work today. I’ve had a couple of days off and I’m ready to get back to it. I have to save up for my oil change, car payment, and gym membership this week. OMFG, the car payments are almost over! I seriously can’t fucking wait! I am literally so fucking sick of paying that! I also have credit cards due in the next couple of weeks as well. I could get my oil changed somewhere for about $20 but it’s at a place that will tell you that there’s a shit ton of stuff wrong with your car when there’s not just to try and get you to spend a bunch of money and I don’t want to be pissed off so I’m just gonna wait until I can afford to take it to the place I always take it. I wish I had a coupon but maybe I’ll look on their website and see if there’s any new ones.

So I just realized that I actually have to be to work 30 minutes early from what I thought so I gotta get going. More later.