Fuck Christmas. in Since OD is shutting down....

I don’t want to sound too bahumbug, but I’m not not feeling the whole Christmas cheer. It feels like just another day. I also didn’t have the greatest day at work and I don’t have anyone to talk to so I’m feeling the holiday blues.

The bright spot of my day is that the lady from the home health aide place called and offered me the job! I was at work around people that didn’t need to hear my personal business so I didn’t answer but she left the sweetest voicemail ever so I called her back and left her a message. I know that the training/orientation is on the 30th but she mentioned something about doing overnights at a nursing home on Tuesday when I did the drug test so I’m guessing that’s what she’s gonna wanna talk to me about. She said that it’s basically just making sure a client stays in her room while I can play on Facebook. I would basically get paid $11/hour to be on my laptop?!?!?! Um yes, I’m definitely interested!!!!

It hasn’t quite hit me that I got the job, probably because I haven’t talked to her yet directly but I’m definitely ready to cut my hours WAY DOWN at my current job. That place is a fucking nightmare. I’m so tired of taking shit off of rude teenagers. One pissed me off so bad tonight that I told her she was an idiot. I’m not gonna go into what was said but she was being incredibly rude because I didn’t have my contacts in due being called in early and I got super pissed. I just can’t deal with that bullshit on a daily basis.

I have realized that I’m overall just not happy there anymore. I have good days and I have bad days but no matter what kind of day I’ve had, I’m still happy to be pursuing other jobs and glad that I will be getting my car paid off so it will be easier to move into something else. Even on my best day, I know that I deserve so much more than that place. It’s a fucking sandbox for you to stick your head in. Oh and today? Nothing was mentioned about a Christmas bonus whatsoever and the Christmas party with be next Monday at our other store for a POTLUCK and then bowling afterwards. So not only do we have to bring our own food, but we’ll hang out at our work and then go bowling? They can’t even make us food at our store or pay for our meal somewhere?!?!?!?!?!?! Wow. I don’t expect anything less. I just don’t feel like it’s a fair deal. I think we put more into this than we should.

It’s not hard to see why people come and go. One of the guys that I work with ended up getting fired for not showing up and I know why. He lost his zest for the job. He got burnt out and just couldn’t bring himself to show up anymore. I have so many days where I feel the same fucking way. I don’t have the same zest anymore and the only reason I’m still there is because I know how much I’d fuck myself to quit before I had something else lined up. It’s just crazy to have loved something so much that I now have so much hate and resentment for. Everyday is a constant reminder why I’m looking for another job.

All I know is that I want to be at a job that does more than build me up than tear me down. I just don’t see the point in staying and doing what I can to be a great, hard working employee that they can always count to to go the extra mile for customers and be called in all the fucking time. I think it’s bullshit that they take advantage of people like me all because we need a fucking job. I’m also still pissed about the comment my boss made the other night about me leaving early “like any other job” and never did get an explanation for what that meant! I watch people leave early almost every fucking night so the one night I need to leave because my feet were cold, wet and I was really uncomfortable I’m getting in trouble for?! Wow! Fuck her!

Anyways, I’m gonna go to sleep since I drank a couple of beers and took some cough syrup that made me drowsy. More Christmas bullshit tomorrow.