Trying to Win in meh...

Life changes that need to be made require sacrifice and come with butterflies of the nervous variety. So I dove head first into it and come the spring, I will, as millions have before me, become an undergraduate student at Webster University.

I haven’t gone over particulars with my sister. I thought she would be mad. She probably hasn’t noticed what my field of study is. If she has she just hasn’t said anything. I was already having issues with the food truck idea (read…I forget which entry it was). Like I told a friend, “Challenges can be signs, challenges can be tests. You have to know when to hold, fold, walk, run. Or be brave enough to make a solid decision and deal with the outcome whether right or wrong.” I’m holding to that. I just feel that the food truck thing isn’t my time. Maybe it’s my sisters, but not mine.

I told my friends, then I told my mom and my dad. Then I posted it on facebook. Lots of support. Wonder where all these people were when I was younger? But I won’t dwell on that.

I filled out all my financial aid stuff. I also am scheduled to register this week on Thursday. I am excited. I am frightened. I am also a soldier. The only thing that I am really concerned about is that my daughter starts working a 3-11 shift and the care of my grandson. I tried to have an adult conversation with her, a family meeting type situation, but it was rather ::wobbles hand:: not that she wasn’t listening or anything, but nothing came of it. I wanted to make a plan. I’m guessing since neither one of us have been in our respective positions, it’s kind of hard to make a plan. But still my concern for my baby trumps all other things. I was trying to get her to get him in a daycare that runs 24hrs or at night. That way when he starts head start or school he will be taken care of. If I had a car we wouldn’t have this conversation. She said her father is talking about giving her a jeep he’s been driving around and if she had a car she wouldn’t have any issues either.

So I’m still my usual worrying self, but I will be learning to earn in the process.
::sigh:::

Till next time.
Kindest regards,
Sister…