Nothing But The Devil in meh...

Last night I went to the place where I would be attending classes to register for school. I chose to start earlier because there are classes I need to take sequentially that I would miss out on. That was God telling me to stop being a chicken and procrastinating. It’s not that I wouldn’t be able to take them, but I believe in building upon what’s been started. Foundations and such.

Now the devil came to play in the form of my daughter, like always. She tried to call me when I was in the office with the registrar, but I didn’t know it until I had a minute to look at my phone. Sent a text “what’s wrong?” She wants me to watch baby. Okay. How will he get to me? Her shift is at 3, I’m not home til 5. Who will hold him? How will he get to me? Your bother won’t be home from school, etc…THISSSS mfr had the audacity to tell me that her brother should be helping out. I told her he has his own life. Baby is not HIS responsibility. If she wants to work something out that’s between them but otherwise he doesn’t HAVE to do shit for her.

So now I’m pissed and fussing. I then told her not to be ungrateful. I told her that she is BLESSED that she even still has me in her corner trying to do what I can. She said something about their father isn’t going to help much. I said he will whether he wants to or not. His lazy ass will just have to be uncomfortable. What the hell does he have to do that. Requires him to take care of someone else?? He gets indignant when I tell him he is self serving and has no allegiance to anyone but himself. He’s the person that fusses about not being invited to the party, then when you invite them, I can’t or don’t want to. All he has to do when he gets up in the morning is take care of himself. I can’t do that. And everything I make happen I do it with no car. How exactly is it that the mfr with no care is almost EXPECTED to make a plan and git’er done on the bus?? There have been many nights I’ve been in the dark on the bus, leaving work, rushing to a hospital to see about her, going to daycare to take get my baby and make sure he is okay. and their clown ass daddy still still didn’t get there until about 20 mins after I left. Then picked THAT particular time to kick her when she’s down. But I’m the parent that does everything and get treated lower than low…

At any rate, I will overcome this to. Gracefully when everyone is watching, anda raging canine lady when no one is watching.

Too bad I can’t lay down some more. I got to get up in 11 minutes.

Have a beautiful day.
Kindest Regards,
Sister