he' not wrong. i jut. it' not what i want/ed to hear. and dr. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

yeah so on fri. I had a dr.s appt. which. didn’t happen. I mean I was there but she didn’t see me. I was there during 1:30 - 2 and my appt. was at 1:30. but.........I don’t know how long it was going to be. I just wonder what she was doing during that time. And Please don’t tell me.
so we drove about 30 mins. to the place in Denver. and we were 5 mins. late. which to me isn’t ‘late’ and also they don’t give you a lot of time. if they gave you 20 mins. then you have more time. but then if they gave me 20 mins. then their next patient would’ve waited 20 min..........and the patient after that. and so on. the desk lady gave ue the option of waiting but I didn’t know how long we’d have waited for and I really didn’t feel like wasting more time. so we scheduled another appt. and then drove about 30 mins. back. so we wasted an hr. and 5 mins. of our time that day. had I known that was going to happen I never would’ve gone. I really don’t like wasting my time.
so I was all put out by this. I was also hungover that day. yeah I had like. a 2 day hangover.
it’s interesting bc the appt. was about my depression which to me seems like a strange thing to be discussing w/ your MD. [until recently i’d never heard them being referred to as like. ‘pdocs’ or ‘PCP’]. not that it shouldn’t be talked about but to me MDs aren’t really feeling type people. they’re more ‘ok this I what you do when you don’t feel good’ type people. um I already know what to which again is just wasting my time. it’s like ‘ok so you come in for 20 mins. tell me what’s wrong and i’ll give you a prescription’. no I already know what’s wrong. I just want the damn prescription. actually how this came about was that I told her I wanted to discuss BC options for my period and then she asked how I felt when I had my period and I mentioned I got depressed. so we didn’t even really get to discuss what I was in there for once again wasting my time.
so yeah. for that reason and bc I don’t feel like she cares [and even if she does I don’t want to think that. don’t try convincing me otherwise even if I am wrong] i’m switching dr.s. maybe I won’t be wasting my time w/ the new dr. but I don’t like the fact that I had to go through this experience in order to know all this now. or that I wasn’t more prepared. or...........not comfortable enough w/ her to tell her which BC option I wanted. I told her why I was there. and she diverted me. which means I don’t feel like she listened to me. [no of course I don’t. I don’t want to think people do. I want to think people don’t care. which ok sometimes they actually don’t. i’m a cynic and a pessimist and I don’t want that to change, orry].