Tuesday April 15th. in Since OD is shutting down....

I worked very early again this morning. I didn’t make much, but I have enough for my car note tomorrow. Both my boyfriend and daughter will be gone tomorrow so I’m going to work the entire day with no interruptions. I’m beyond excited. He was snippy and annoying the shit out of me earlier so I told him to go for a ride. I’ve just now gotten laundry done and picking up the house. I know that it’s busy and I should be making money but I also know that he’s been with the child for days now and needs a break.

I’m very stressed about the future. My boyfriend is only going to get unemployment for so long and I don’t know what he’s wanting to do for a job. He’s definitely got health issues and I do worry about him being able to hold down a job when he’s sick a lot and constantly complaining about not being able to breathe. I’m really worried that he’s going to get charged for assault and he has court at the end of this month for the PO my little brother placed. I again wish he wouldn’t have done that but there’s no changing it now.

It’s annoying that my house never stays even remotely clean. I am so fucking sick of picking up the same shit daily. Neither one of them clean up after themselves at all. I work, take care of a kid, pay some bills, and do all the house cleaning and cook most of the meals. I’m honestly just grateful that I can get laundry done here again instead of hauling it over to the laundromat. I literally pray I never have to do that again. I only spent about $5 when before it was at least $20.

My parents had their court today for the PO my Mom placed on my Dad. I have no idea if it was granted or not but whatever. I don’t really care, nobody in this family gets a long. I am also really tired of their being issues and my Mom is quicker than FUCK to cut me off and never speak to me again. I’m not at all surprised that I haven’t heard from her and probably won’t for a very long time. There’s never been any clearing the air in my family, We just don’t speak for a long time and then go on like nothing ever happened. I saw the PO and she filled out a lot of it in her own handwriting. She kept saying to all of us that my boyfriend was at their house for at least 20 minutes and then in the PO, she said only 10 minutes. My Mom is a fucking lying bitch and I’ve learned to never trust a fucking thing she says.