Thinking giving baby up,he deserves better in Life of a Mama Cat

 I have been debating on when the pregnancy is over if I survive this pregnancy just give the baby up for adoption. I don't have the support system I need. I am tired of the arguments. After I give Leo away I am just going to get fixed so into a deep depression for a while. I might off myself I don't know. I want to talk to my husband but he told me not to give him the woe is me shit. My baby deserves better than I can give him. Every fiber in my being makes me want to keep him and thrive to give him the life that I never have. I love him but love isn't enough. Maybe if I adopt him out he can have a better loving family. My husband will divorce me for this.. it's ok. I am used to having nothing anyway. I want Leo to have every chance I can't afford to give him.

I love Leo. I am only 4 1/4 months pregnant. I love his little kicks and I love feeling him move. I just don't feel like I am enough even though I want to so badly.