the thing i don't realise. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

is that he already is who I think he should be. evan I mean. I want him to be sweet and compassionate and he is. just not all the time. and I want him to be like that all the time. things aren’t ever enough for me. I can’t just settle for things. I can’t ever let things go. [well clearly as evidenced by the fact that every time we talk I bring up how depressed I am. but he does the same thing]. and I think it’s bc things aren’t ever enough for me . er I mean I think that’s why I don’t fully appreciate things. people. cause I can’t let thing be. do you know how boring that would be? and stagnant. you’d be stuck being that way. yeah but so’s this. sometimes I don’t feel like he appreciates me. again I know like I have room to talk.
i’m really good at not letting things go.