Entry 81: More Random Thoughts in Much Ado About Nothing

This morning, Nala was cute. My bedroom doesn’t get sun much. Only sunlight exposure is from noon to 3. Nala woke up a little early today and started crying a bit. So, I gave her the morning pills, checked her food and water, and encouraged her to go outside. She did not want to go outside. She then came back to the room with me… but was still quietly crying. So, I got up again- encouraged her to come down from the bed, and show me what she wanted. She walked to a spot in the living room bathed in light, stretched, and looked at me. I laughed a little and started walking back to the bedroom but Nala caught up and joined me in walking to the bedroom. I laughed again, turned back to the living room, and pointed to the spot on her chair bathed in light. I encouraged her to jump and lay down there. She did and was happy for the sun. I pet her and told her specifically, “I appreciate you wanting to spend time, but you can stay here if you want. That’s okay, you’re a good girl.” I then went back to the bedroom, and she stayed on the chair. lol.

I am still communicating with Hinge Girl. She had a D&D night last night (a definite Yay for my interests). We discussed Anime. So… D&D, Anime, Video Games… one of those “Yeah, my interests!” So… I am like… I hope it works out.... but I don’t know how things will go or if that paranoia in my brain has any justification. As it is a 100 mile one way; a quick coffee isn’t easy. But she is in the same area as my brother’s family. So, if I can wrangle it… I can schedule coffee with her and have a Brother Visit backup. But we’ll see. There is still plenty of time to screw this up in the next few days. Though, she was appreciative that I prioritize her comfort and safety… my job really shows how things can go wrong and I want to make sure the people I am with/around feel safe. It is funny… honestly- the profile Pic shows some amazing eyes… and a decent body. So, I have the… I don’t know about the T but suspect largely because she’s willing to talk with me which shows how I feel about myself but… I would still like to have Online Dating wind up in at least 1 date. And see where it goes from there.

That said, I downloaded Tinder again. And, of course, Tinder is great at “flooding the zone.” Hinge and Facebook Dating is constantly doing a “LOOK- HERE IS A 32 YEAR OLD IN CHICAGO, YES?” But Tinder does the “LOOK AT ALL THE ATTRACTIVE 30 AND 40 SOMETHINGS IN A 50 MILE RADIUS!!” But the catch there is… you can use Tinder without paying them money… but if you want it to mean anything- you’ll need to give them about $200. And upsettingly and frustratingly… I am aggravatingly tempted. I don’t want to spend loads of money for the potential possibility of maybe possibly at some point maybe having an encounter with a local woman. But… especially after seeing (according to Tinder) exactly how many attractive 30s and 40 somethings in a 50 mile radius there are… and comparing that to what I am getting from Hinge and FB Dating? It is certainly tempting.