rushed moment in Second 1st

Everything is going to be okay.... at least for the week. It’s Friday morning. All the stress caused a bad episode as expected.... I hadn’t eaten much (a smoothie and wrap from Tropical Smoothie Cafe) Wednesday because I was so stressed and ended up having an episode that night. Woke 3 times to throw up and still went to Dash on time.... well 15 mins late.... Thursday wasn’t any better and I’m paying for it hardcore this morning. My head is screaming at me for looking at this screen. I just took migraine meds and will close them again in a few moments.

I read Jake the entry 2 entries ago and he got right to work looking up prices. He offered to get the tickets and let me pay him back but I ..... I can do this. Taking his help right now is believing I can’t. I just wanted him to know what my status was.... if I seem busy I am… if it looks like someone else needs to clean up a mess, they do. I do not want to grab lunch. I’m not going to hang out with the girls.... in fact

Even after sending all my shit to Dest and Lyndsey .... Dest called me around 3:30 yesterday to ask if I could take Lou to the doctor at 9 this morning. WTF!.... me: “I sent all that yesterday so that ya’ll wouldn’t do this.” Destiny: “I know but mom told me to ask you first and I’m only doing what I’m told.” “Ah, so she just doesn’t want to wake to do it, no I’m sorry I really have to work. I’ve got to come up with like $4000 in 60 days.” “$4000?!?!” “Well, yeah, $1000 on flight, another $600 on hotel, $500 for a car and money to live on and have fun on for 7 days.” I’m going high here ya’ll no one needs to check my numbers right now. “I really mean No hun and you know I would if I could but I really really can’t.”

I hate that she called to ask even though I was beyond optical glass clear.... Like girl you are 42, just read the damn text I sent to your mom and let her figure it out. I’m glad they are talking again though.... who knows how well that’s going.

I’m up and like 50% … seems like the meds are working but I’ma go shut my eyes again.... I’ve got like an hour and 1/2 before I would want to get up for work.