Deal in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write

I went on a little vacation last week. I visited Chiang Mai.

It’s quite a lovely place, although it reminds me a bit too much of Haight-Ashbury. Lots of tourists, not really anything too exciting, it’s a very mellow place. It’s quite unlike any place I’ve been in some respects, and after I’d been there three days, I realized that I needed to be about 27 to really enjoy the place.

I had finally calmed down a a bit and stopped crying everywhere. The funny thing is, I had realized it while watching the show that made me have a breakdown, I had actually met the two Korean actors. I even wrote a little bit about them when it had happened. There were some scenes in Bangkok in the show, and they were hanging out with Ten on the night we all hung out and he offered to buy me a drink.

It’s just funny how things work out.

Gay marriage was legalized yesterday in Thailand and two of my good friends got married. I’m happy for them.

Bond, my old co-worker from the high school, had his birthday the other night. I brought a date. I could see my former co-workers looking at me a little side-eyed because I had never brought a plus-one to any event before… in fact, I never have in my entire life, even if I technically had a plus-one at the time.

It feels so pathetic to still be breaking new ground at my age.

But there’s something wrong, and I know it. But I don’t want to say it out loud because then it becomes real and I have to deal with it, which isn’t like me. Usually, I just deal.

Can’t I have a little peace and enjoy the moment for once?

Deal.