Update 4 in The REAL Baby Journey!

My sister had her sweet little girl at 11:58 PM 11/4/2014 only 7 minutes after her water broke & only needed to do 2 pushes. Amazing. No pain meds, feels great, baby has been breastfeeding & on her chest nonstop & hasn’t even been weighed or measured yet. She’s doing awesome & I am so, so happy for her :) I’m an auntie to Ms Joyanna Kaylee!

My contractions have slowed down to only every 8-10 minutes which is great. I’m not sleeping at all (hello 3:30 AM) mostly because of the continuous monitors so that sucks but I feel fine. No pain & only a slight abdominal discomfort with the contractions.

One of my very sweetest friends from my first job is my nurse tonight & she is as passionate about labor and delivery as I am about trauma ICU nursing. She is so calm & optimistic & caring & funny & kind. I think her being here helps Rob feel Iike things are really under control too. It’s a wonderful surprise & relief to know I’m not bothering her at 2 AM with my random thoughts & she just comes in, sits down & we chatted about life & babies & her husband & Rob (he’s asleep on a cot beside me) & it helped get my mind off things. She is fantastic.

Beyond that we’re just waiting for the steroids to work to help rapidly mature the baby’s lungs. I will get two injections, one yesterday & one today, and after 48 hours since the first one the baby will have received maximize benefit.

They will take me off of bedrest & let me try to get labor started. I will be officially induced on Friday if no progress on my own. With my water officially breaking yesterday (I was so right to be worried & my doctor is an asshole) the risk of infection is weighed vs the risk of delivering before the steroids & so far baby is better off inside until the meds are in.

My nurse did go find my doctor & told him I was pissed & had him come talk to me. He played totally innocent & said no one told him about me. Bullshit. Total bullshit. Way to blame your clinic staff when you’re just an incompetent tool. He also asked twice if I had been taking my progesterone & then alluded to my ‘anxiety’ as playing a role in what got me here. Eff you. I was so calm & chill I worked 16 hours in the last two days while leaking fluid because I trusted him & believed him. If I were that anxious & high strung I would have been more pushy or called more & done better. Every nurse & doctor I’ve talked to says I should have been told to come in on Monday & then they could have stopped labor & maximized the chances of baby staying in even longer than 34 weeks.

Besides that, I don’t feel worked up or anxious. I feel pretty chill. The baby is moving a TON tonight & the contractions seem to really piss the little bugger off. It looks so, so healthy though & its heart rate has been steady & stable. Big stress relief there. :)

With the continuous monitor they asked if I wanted the sound left on or not so I could hear the whoosh whoosh all night. Of course I want it on, quietly reminding me of my healthy strong little child in there. I’m not ready to be done being pregnant & will really truly miss feeling the baby move & wiggle & dance inside me. I have loved pregnancy, even though it can be hard & I’m not even close to wanting to meet this baby…but I get it. My body knows what it is doing & I have complete faith in the doctors & nurses caring for me. I couldn’t be in a better place & that is comforting.

Alright. Time to get some sleep to the quiet whoosh whoosh of my baby. Pretty soon baby will be up in NICU & this will all be very different....tonight I savor this precious dwindling time where baby is still mine and I’m still keeping the little one safe on my own. The world is sleeping & working & living their lives but in this room it’s me & my baby & these last few hours/days of being one body with two people in it. No question I’m falling asleep rubbing my little itty bump. <3

Last updated November 05, 2014