Fix stove after fire,washer replaced,leak laundry room, lost solar panels in Life of a cat mom

My life has been a bit of a failure lately.. if it can go wrong it does. My stove heating oven element caught on fire arched and melted the metal in half.In the past 3 days I have have bought parts and repaired a oven after it tried to burn my house down.. Bought a new washer because it wasn’t working. I was thinking of fixing it but we discovered it was cheaper buying it new than doing repairs. My husband had to fix a leak that took over our laundry room. Had to sharkbite leaky pipes.i tried to buy solar panels to have an argument with my husband the man got upset because I tried to explain we were running late because a leak in our laundry room. The men refuse to sell the solar panels to me my husband fussed at me till I cried. We are now washing my uniform for in the morning and I am cuddled in the bedroom with my cats. I just want to teach myself how to do solar power.. I am not looking to go off grid I just want to learn how to wire solar panels. I am tired and feeling defeated with life. At least I try.. I guess I am just going to go to harbor freight buy solar panels and teach myself after of course I haul off my broke down washer.