He's coming to visit me in Journal 2024

Hi, it’s been awhile. Still a unemployed college graduate but I’m working on my next book and got some more short stories published.

Manuel is coming to see me and I’m very excited and scared. This week I was frightened. More so mentally that he’d come and not love me anymore. I was very anxious and I couldn’t sleep I was stressed beyond relief.

Manuel is very nice. I feel for the first time I can…trust a man’s word. You may be thinking, isn’t he older then you? Isn’t this dangerous? What if Manuel treats you badly once he has you?

I understand but I feel I have to go. I have to try. When I first met Manuel, I kept thinking of ways to get him to love me. And to keep me. I was afraid so I kept telling him benefits.

I’m okay with children. I’ll cook and clean no problem. I’m educated I was very smart and I have a good work ethic. I’m respectful and quiet.

I felt like I was doing a imaginary, solo job interview. I was very scared to be alone. But Manuel has been really nice to me. And so kind and helpful and gracious. I’ve never felt so happy.

I’ll update after we meet.