Ramble On in General

Every time I come here to write, my brain either just shuts down or goes a mile a minute and can’t settle. But I need to write, even if just to clear my head.

For now… a random mishmash of things to follow up on in the near future…

• Overall restlessness and big decisions that keep getting put off

• Health questions and some changes that need to be made

• Too much procrastination getting in the way of everything

• Family changes, particularly a new nephew and another on the way

• A recent ADHD diagnosis that I’m still trying to process

• A pre-holiday exhaustion that always seems to creep in given my long history in retail

• Things that I want to accomplish and/or work towards over the next year

We shall see how I do with any of it. The one thing the ADHD diagnosis has put into perspective is my lifelong struggle with motivation and need to unlearn a lifetime of bad habits. So far, it definitely feels like a one step forward two steps back sort of thing… easily overwhelmed and difficult for figure out how to prioritize what to focus on. It’s hard not to wonder how different it would be if I’d been diagnosed as a child and learned the coping skills at that point instead of trying to figure it out piecemeal now.