Fibromyalgia vs gym,chores and pain makes person suicidal in Life of a cat mom

My husband doesn’t understand that fibromyalgia gave me the urge to cease living. The pain was so bad nothing could resolve it. My husband is used to me being able to run,do chores and take care of everything but lately it hasn’t been like this. I am depressed because the pain becomes to much. I cry a lot alone hiding in the bedroom.

Today I thought we were going to build the steps at the mobile home my mom owns instead life has other plans. During my husband weight loss appointment I gave my brother a Doc Brown Funko Pop. My brother loves Back To The Future. We looked around Aldi and my brother went home.

We had to wait to pick up Allana from work. I told my husband how much pain I am in from fibromyalgia my husband heard that exercise helps improve the pain. We went to the gym. I tried to exercise but the entire time tears were in my eyes. My supported him cheering my on but Talan doesn’t understand the misery I go through. We took Allana home and Talan decided he no longer wanted to build the stairs. Another day no stairs to that mobile home.

I came home took a nap to escape my misery. All my cats climbed in bed. I forgot to take my gabapentin for pain. I woke up feeling worse. I manage to clean one litter box but I felt bad because I didn’t do the other one. My husband swore to me he would do it if I bought him some gloves so I ran to Dollar General for gloves. I need to check if he did it.. if not I plan to bear my pain and do it myself.

I don’t know how a got fibromyalgia but I know God gave it to me to slow me down because if given the opportunity I would run 24 hours a day. Anybody have advice how to deal with fibromyalgia?