opinion request in Second 1st

Before I look at any comments or anything....
I somehow lost my nose piercing the night before last.... it’s fine though… Lyndsey had a piercing one and we fixed it last night. Dest had some jewelry.... it’s sore but I’m thankful. Lou got her’s (Wilbur got his, same person) done literally yesterday for their 16th birthday and got the same side as the rest of us in some cute gesture of togetherness. Thank God they are at their dad’s this weekend and won’t ever know lol.... not true totally telling them Tuesday afternoon if no one else does lol.

Last night was great played a few games, had a couple drinks and of course the pot gummies.... and this morning I could totally sleep in BUT.... have to work.... have to make money.....

Which brings me to another reason I”m posting this morning. Maybe a little brag first..... last night Jake dropped me off at Destiny’s and took his mother to a veterans dinner.... there have been 3 this week and I’d already been to 2 amazing diners. Seriously ya’ll. The first one was Thursday. That diner was put on by a huge church. They had round tables with plenty of space. We had been sat alone but were asked to “come sit with us” and had some good conversation without food. The food was top notch: steak, chicken cordon blue, shrimp, potatoes, a veggie medley, coleslaw, and rolls I ate Jake’s steak and he ate my chicken. All was delicious. The second one was another church and Thanksgiving-themed as the holiday moves closer. Turkey was raised by a group of local kids.... in a class I was hardly paying attention to at the time and couldn’t tell ya if it was like a 4H group or a FFA/FHA thing..... though now that I think about it I don’t think they have FFA/FHA here. I digress. It was awesome as it was so close to the traditional Thanksgiving foods we have in my family. They had: turkey, gravy, potatoes, sweet potatoes, stovetop stuffing, coleslaw, some onion Italian bread and butter, and cranberry salad..... at my house there would not be coleslaw we would have greenbean casserole instead with those sweet Hawaiian rolls and cranberry jelly (from a can). It was great though.... that was put on by a group called “Gleaners”. Lastly, when Jake came to pick me up he arranged to take some leftovers and grabbed the laundry I had taken over to Dests and it was said “I wish I had one of those” lol.... because he was listening to things I asked him. We were in the middle of a game of Cards Against Humanity.

My drier is broke..... Rocky can’t even look at it because he sliced his thumb at work on Monday last week..... he isn’t “allowed” to use his right hand till the 15th .... 8 stitches and they re right crossed his joint.... not the one closest to your hand but the other one.... looks awful..... anyways.... He will have a look at it soon but in the meantime I took a load over to dry while I was over there..... just one load because earlier in the week we took them to the laundry mat and got them all done at once.....

The big uhoh is that Jake is …I don’t know how to express how I feel about something he’s trying to pull over on me. I am upset… I feel taken advantage of… I feel like an idiot and I hate feeling stupid so much. That being said…a day earlier in the week jake got a check for a fair bit of money from the government for his disability case.... they approved a period but not to present. He will have to refile but got 11 months worth of back pay. It’s honestly quiet exciting.... this on top of the inheritance check he got.... when all the holds are over he will be able to get a car and our period of being together 24/7 will end. /. This week Jake asked me to take a day off. Said he’d pay me the $100 goal to spend the day doing anything but work. Then, he has proceeded to pay back in gas.... filling the tank and subtracting that from the total .... we also went home early yesterday and I just know he’s going to do the same to the other 30 bucks. I need that money though to pay bills… and it’s not like he’s not using my car.... like last night… drop me off, go get his mom, take her to BFE for a diner, drive her back home, come get me and take me home.... and while taking his mother to DR. appointments or making sure he’s home for his mental health check in on Friday’s (they go to his moms house currently) I’ve never once asked for gas money. ..... I want to say something as it feels so very unfair.... but he’s going to be paying me 1600 in rent for the last few months on the 15.... 16th .... after the check has cleared.... but I know I’ll need to take another day off shortly because he will need days off to look at cars.... and I need to prevent him from doing this or the bills will just not get paid.....

I’ve had to talk to him several times about the facts that we are eating out twice a day.... and who’s been paying for that.... so I talked to him about making sandwiches to take with us for the day..... right now he’s eating chips waiting for me to finish this entry so we can get to work....

I’m sure I’ll get to it sometime today but any suggestions on how to handle the situation?