So Shiny in 2024

It’s 53 degrees this morning.
Absolutely beautiful!
It’s almost 9 am on a Sunday morning and I’m awake cause Little Miss Thang thought she NEEDED to go potty or some shit.
Oh, she did!
I’m so happy we are done with the house training phase (knock on wood). That is, by far, my least favorite puppy phase.

Anyhow, I’m waiting for the coffee to brew and trying to decide what to do with my day.

Things I Need To Do:
-Laundry. It’s just a Sunday routine. I don’t have much since it’s just me here at the moment.
-Wash the bedding. Yes, it gets a separate bullet point. Every set of sheets we have is “dirty”. This includes the blankets / comforters that go with them. Our laundry room has two washers and dryers. I guess one of the dryers broke cause it’s gone and we are left with two washers and one dryer. I just haven’t been patient enough to do the bedding one load at a time. Lazy? Meh, maybe.
-Dishes!!! It’s just a few but I need to get them done so it doesn’t get crazy.
-Cook the damn roast. The (only) grocery store in town was having a hell of a meat sale Friday. It kind of made me sad because I could have gotten bulk meat super cheep. BUT, it would have just sat in the freezer because I don’t really “cook” when Dana is away. However, I did get a nice beef roast for under ten bucks. I really need to get it in the crockpot. I could use up the peppers and onions I have before they go bad.
-Put the lights up over the tv. I’m pretty excited to see how they turn out.

Oh!! COFFEE IS DONE!!

What I want to do today is just zone out on a diamond painting and listen to some mindless tv in the background.
I started a new one last night.
Say what you will about them but they shut my brain up and I will take that any day.
Why do I do that? Why do I always feel the need to defend things that bring me joy and peace? “I know I’m doing a nerdy thing but I’m still cool, I swear.”
No im not. I’m a nerd. A geek. A weirdo even. I like intricate things that I can zone out on. If you lived with this non stop inner dialogue, you would embrace anything that shut it up, too.

I have SO many of them to do.
Seriously!

Heh…I..uh…I might have gone on a bit of a shopping spree when Dana went to Ohio last year. Whoops.
So there are 9 there, the one I started last night, and two half finished ones in the craft closet.
One of the unfinished ones is one that Izzy was working on. She wanted to do one when she saw me working on one. That lasted about three days.
I should just throw that one out. The memories hurt and anger me. But, I’m too cheap. I spent money on it and I feel it needs to be finished.
I don’t know, it might just sit in the closet until I finish the others.
What I really want is one of those big diamond paintings. They are like door sized. Oh man!
I can’t get one of those until I’ve finished these.
Period!
Maybe I should make that a goal; finish my stash of diamond paintings so I can get a big ass one.

This coffee kicks ass. Maybe I’m so motivated because of the coffee? If so, simple fix; make more coffee!!!!!

So Dana and I figured out the holidays last night. He is going to come down for Thanksgiving and I’m going there for Christmas. I’m cool with that and it’s only fair to split the difference.
I just have to figure out if I’m boarding River or taking her.
I hate getting in arguments with Dana like that. Shit, I bet if you ask him, it wasn’t even an argument.
I just need to calm down and trust in us. Trust that, at the end of the day, he loves me. That’s what Dana would (and has) tell me.
See?? This is why I do the diamond paintings. I don’t think about things and then end up over thinking about them.

Trust is just so hard for me now.
Just remember; Dana is not Kip. Dana actually loves me and is not a sociopath that lets his sociopath daughter rule him.
It took me a loooong time to let Dana in. I was ok with him just being a guy that I had fun with. When I realized I was falling in love with him, I fought it. Hard. Kip and Izzy really messed me up, yall.

Okie dokie…that went into a strange place. Time to medicate.
Put a bra on to wrangle in these monsters.
Go put a load of bedding in the wash.
Then turn my brain off for awhile.

Edit
From the time I posted this entry, until now, I’ve been on the ball.
I have one load of bedding in the dryer and one in the wash.
I did the dishes.
AND the roast is cooking. It’s so pretty.

I had the bell peppers and onions left over from a night I wanted to make sweet and sour chicken and changed my mind.
I’m wondering how this is going to turn out. Smells pretty amazing.
I guess I’m making this for sandwiches. I’m more likely to eat a sandwich than to heat up an entire meal.
Alright, off to numb my brain with little diamonds.

Edit, Edit: It’s currently almost 1:40 and I’ve made progress.
-Laundry: Done! I walked in to check on my last load and a lady had my basket and was taking my clothes out of the dryer.
“I hope you don’t mind. You don’t mind, right?” She said, shoving my unmentionables into my hamper.
Yes! Yes I mind! I don’t want your grummy hands all over my underwear. You saw me doing laundry. You could have waited a damn minute. Is what I thought. What I SAID was, “oh, yeah, that’s cool, it’s just clothes.”
Grrrrrrah.

All of the laundry is done and put away. The bedding is finally clean, folded, and clean sheets on the bed.

(See the corner of the bed? Alllll the furniture looks like this now. The bed isn’t even paid for yet. Sigh.)

Told yall I had a lot of bedding to wash. I would really like to chunk everything, including pillows, and just buy new.
I wonder if JC Pennys still has their white sale. A few sets of good quality sheets would be nice.

I don’t know about your house but at my house it takes a good 30 minutes to made the bed.
Why? Cause I have an extra helper that likes to untuck the corners over and over.

It’s ok, she is an adorable helper.
Wow! My list is pretty much done. All I have left is to put the lights up.
We shall see if that gets done today.
That roast smells so good and is driving me nuts!!!!!