Friends, Huh? in meh...

Most of my life, I’ve been that friend that breaks their neck to do whatever if I can. My mother likes my friends, but she doesn’t like them because I go all out for them but it’s not reciprocated in the same fashion.

Last weekend, I was basically guilted into going to an annual Halloween party when I was dead tired. I had spent all morning and afternoon with a mixture of bus riding and walking searching for the outfit I needed for my costume to no avail. All day. I got home and had to go back out for groceries to make my son and his coming company dinner.

She was on her way to my house and on the way she was checking places for what I was looking for. I had started cooking and asked her if she would be upset if I didn’t go. She was trying to get me to go buy food for my son and his friend so we could go. I told her I need to cook. She remarked that she would go regardless, so I told her to do that. But she made a little noise about wanting to go with me because that’s what we said. Longer story short, I offered to come on the bus & light rail after I cooked even though I was tired. And I went.

I was tired so I didn’t have the best time, but it was okay.

Fast forward, party down the street from my house on last night. Monday I had a mini meltdown because I thought I tracked down what I needed for my costume. My trip was in vain and it took a lot for me to get to the place I needed to go after work. So I shared my meltdown with her and also texted Him. She felt for me, but didn’t say much. He bought and had the set shipped to me at work. I told her the next day that I apologize for my meltdown and how he saved the day for me. She replied “Look I’m not even feeling it.” I mentioned nothing else and actually have talked to her since.

Another friend, I asked if she and her boyfriend would like to come visit, see the band. I even gave her a plan with her son. Haven’t heard from her. She probably thought it was an after the fact invite and it wasn’t. But it would have been nice if she had said yes or no. But, it is what it is.

So my 2nd adult Halloween was a bust. I got dressed and posted pictures of my son and I. We walked around the neighborhood which was quiet. Very quiet. We saw a couple of kids who marveled at his costume. Then we went home and put in an Adventure Time cartoon dvd and fell asleep on it. I drank my collectable Game of Thrones beer and called it a night.

I said to my son we have to start doing stuff for ourselves to make life fun. It would be better if we had a car then it wouldn’t matter if people come through for us or not. But that’s not how friends are supposed to be.

Oh well…