105, Not Good in 2020-2024

My glucose was 105 when I got up. Still pre-diabetic. I was hoping by now it’d be 95 or lower.

I was looking at the weather for the next week, and I’m just like, why? Just why? Every fucking time I roll onto days, the rain dries up. We might get a little burst of rain, but when it comes to thunderstorms, there’s next to nothing. Then, as soon as I start sleeping in… boom! How am I supposed to think this is just a coincidence?

I was hoping to stay caught up on sleep before the storms return, but I’m pretty tired today because I was up for so long yesterday. There’s a storm system brewing in the Caribbean, but we don’t know yet how much rain we’ll get from it, and probably won’t until Tuesday.

I was on the road earlier when a woman in Texas joined me on my ride. We chatted briefly. I can’t wait for new glasses and a new headset! Unfortunately, they’re still several months away. For now, things are blurry, but it’s better than nothing.

Every now and then, random memories of my evil mother pop into my mind. I don’t know if I’ve ever written about the time I jumped out of the car—twice, I think—during heated arguments with her over something I don’t even remember. I was in my late teens. What possessed me to do something so stupid and risky? It just goes to show how desperate I was to get away from her. We weren’t going very fast, so I wasn’t hurt, but I could have been. That’s how miserable she made me. I wasn’t a little kid, but I was still a kid. For me to do something so drastic and dangerous shows the kind of stress I was under. When a kid does something like that, no matter their age, it’s a serious indication of the hell they’re going through. If there’s an afterlife, I hope her suffering is immense. If she’s been reincarnated, I hope she gets exactly what she gave me—and then some.

In the midst of these unpleasant memories, I have some goodies to look forward to from Temu:

• Swiffer refills.
• A set of seven seamless boyshorts.
• 50 neon-colored pencils.
• Two kitchen towels with flowers and butterflies.
• A 2025 animal-themed calendar.
• A 1-meter mixed-color rhinestone tape for decorating furniture.
• A notebook with multicolored pages.
• A wildflower sticker for behind the bathroom door.
• Pink lipstick.
• Glitter mascara.
• A pale pink bed skirt.
• Patterns coloring book.
• Pink cherry blossom fitted sheet.
• Air freshener.
• Metallic pink nail polish.