Depressing in Whatever Will Be Will Be

So, I had about three paragraphs written. Some emotionally honest. Some deeply legal. I fucked up at work, I don’t feel good, and I have a lot to do. I wanted to call in sick today because I’m so exhausted but instead I did a full day of work because I have to; but at work, all I really got accomplished was confirming that I fucked up. All of those paragraphs are gone now, so you’re left with this one. It feels pathetic and stupid but… I’m too a point where I think I need to just sit down and cry. Whether that is “Perform a dramatic scene and cry” or “watch a moving movie and cry” or what but… I just feel like a power cry and a solid day of sleeping is what I need. Considering I have to be at work all day tomorrow because of the damned jury trial… I don’t see relief incoming.