Butterflies Continued in Current Events

I still have butterflies for no reason. Well, I suppose there is a reason. I must be beside myself about my new car.

While I was napping, I noticed that my stomach was throbbing, internally. I used to think it was indigestion but now I can tell that it is inflammation. It throbs the way a toe does when you stub it. It was bothering me all day. If triggered my little anxiety attack this morning. The only thing that could have caused it was my grandmothers salad. “Simple Salad” she calls it. It was super tasty. I was avoiding it because of my restrictions, I hate explaining myself but I caved and had two helpings. I picked out the croutons but one got in. I also know which brand of olive oil she uses and it is the cheap one that I suspect is mixed with canola oil. The body doesn’t know the difference between a little or a lot my NP doctor told me. I’ll survive. My body will just go back to having a leaky gut for a while. It takes 3 weeks to heal fully. I eat a lot of probiotics so it will be faster than that.

I think I’m manifesting inadvertently. First of all, that pretty name of that witch was crossing my mind. I shan’t say it out loud (or written). Then I see repeated numbers. Then coincidences follow. I was thinking about the black raven zz plant I passed up a few years ago and then an Asian store I went to was selling one. It was expensive but I don’t care. Then after my nap, I decided that I wanted to get my fade touched up. I have a car now so I called the barber shop I used to go. We can book you in for 5 today. The lady said when I called at 4:15 PM. They close at 5 and I said sure. Then before I could ask if Henry still worked there she said it was with him. I had to settle for less at the shop by my place. He’s a perfectionist. I appreciate that. The look he gave me when he recognized me, perfect!

Then I was thinking about how there are no prospects for me to date. Of course I was thinking about the synastry required. Then Kyle texts me out of the blue. He’s the only male friend that I have, really. I forget that his chart is the perfect match. Cancer Sun, Taurus Moon, and Libra rising. I’m just not attracted to him… lol ugh.

Now I’m thinking about that new gig. I keep imagining them calling em. Hiring me. Then me falling in love with the job. It’s youth support for high risk kids ages 11-13. I hope that comes true.

My car is still beeping at me. I don’t know what it wants! I can’t find anything lit up or anything communicating an issue. Ugh. I’ll figure it out eventually.

I’m missing House of the Dragon tonight. I just spent the last 4 hours in the kitchen. I made a lasagna (plant based gluten free) and then meal prepped. I don’t what my shifts are next week. The store had a blackout for a few weeks and I forgot about it and never screenshot the schedules. I will have to burden my supervisor tomorrow lol. It’s a civic holiday which doesn’t apply to us so I’m counting tomorrow as a weekend as I procrastinate reaching out to that new gig. I also have to drive out to a reservation tomorrow to take a picture of me with my car. Alex and Bruce are coming, they know the reservation I’m going to and they want to go sage picking.

Anyways, I should be calming down with my entries now. Posting less I mean.

Last updated August 05, 2024