When living in the past is finally untenable, and we leave the memories of key times in our lives behind and move on, wiser for the experiences in Daydreaming on the Porch

One day you’ll look to see I’ve gone
For tomorrow may rain, so I’ll follow the sun

The Beatles


In the summer of 1974 a group of friends and I put out a newspaper at the University we were all attending. I’ve been thinking about those times lately since it’s 2024 and 50 years have passed since I made those wonderful memories. I have never forgotten that experience.

I wrote a fairly detailed memory piece about the experience 25 years ago, and am re-posting it here followed by a postscript follow-up, now that 50 years exactly have passed. It’s very difficult to even imagine so many years have flown by.

From my journal, January 14, 2000:

“I had moved in the summer of 1973 after graduating that May from the University of New Orleans with an English degree and a determination that I was going to make journalism my career. I rented a furnished room and an old suburb of the city near the university, and started taking classes in news writing, journalism law, copy editing, and like so that I could prepare for work on a newspaper. I had no previous experience, having written only one or two guest comumns for the student newspaper in New Orleans, where I tended undergrad college and got my degree.

“What transpired over the next year and a half would decidedly set me on a newspaper course and a series of future jobs that I loved doing, not for the salary or status, or anything like that, but because I genuinely felt I had found what I was suited to do. That understanding came to me most emphatically during the golden Sunmer of 1974, when, under some remarkably “coincidental” circumstances, that group of eight of us came together, and quickly grew dependent on each other in the crucible of late production nights and deadlines on the third floor of the student center where the student newspaper offices and production area were located.

“Surrounded by hamburger wrappers, soft drink cans, coffee, and cigarettes, our small staff manned the clunky computers into which we fed perforated tape to produce the copy and headlines. We then labored to wax and paste up the pages on dummy gallery sheets, feverishly making corrections with exactly knives, bleary-eyed and exhausted, until the final pages were rolled down tight and assembled to be delivered to the printer early the next morning.

“I met my two of my once closest friends that summer. He was the editor, and his wife worked alongside us. We kept in touch for many years. I’ve visited them on a number of occasions since we moved from the university town. Back in the 1970s we were tight. There was nothing we couldn’t discuss for hours on end. That’s long gone, but how I miss the friendship and the social and intellectual stimulation.

“All of us were editors, reporters, and production staff – we did everything it took to put out the paper. During the week we interviewed, made phone calls and wrote our news and feature stories, columns, and editorials. Although we were all journalism novices, we were fiercely laser-focused on our mission that summer.

“I had finished my bachelor’s degree the year before, and the others had all been in the military and were in their mid 20s. We all shared a newly found, deep passion for newspaper work, and we liked each other immensely, from the beginning. We formed an amazing team that set the campus buzzing about this upstart student newspaper filled with investigative stories, in-depth features, commentary, original artwork, creative writing, photography, reviews, and letters to the editor. We were out to make some waves, and, as with so many journalists at the beginning of their careers, we were fearless and ready to ruffle feathers. And that we didd.

“I had some of my black and white documentary photography published in one issue and wrote lengthy feature stories, as well as some news stories. I couldn’t get enough of it. Each issue was more exciting to work on than the previous one. We’d open the bundles of papers when they arrived back from the printer and exult in our efforts, knowing that several all-nighters had been necessary to get the paper out and distributed on campus by Wednesday.

“Every day during the summer I woke up in my big bed in the second-story furnished room I rented thinking about that weeks paper and rushing to get out the door each morning so I could get to the newspaper offices at student center and Immediately we start working on that week’s paper.

All of us felt the same way, and we became so close, so quickly, that it amazed and startled us. We knew that this was something very important and vital, and that we would remember that summer for years to come. There couldn’t be any question about it. We just loved life that summer because we were doing we believed in passionately.

“A little while ago in preparation for writing this, I went through a box of our newspapers from that now long-past golden era of youth and possibility. They’re 25 years old now, and yellowed with age. And that’s just as it should be. As I looked through them, those days of my youth come back, and I marveled once again at the enthusiasm and idealism the paper represented and brought out in us. But perhaps best of all, I made some lifelong friends that summer, and I was changed forever.”

25 years later: Postscript, August 10, 2024

I felt I had to compose and post this entry, drawing upon my memories from both 25 years ago and today, 50 years after a summer cherished and always looked back on fondly. Lots of memories get cloudy over time, but that memorable, two-month experience in the summer of 1974 never faded. Until now. The intensity, the joy of recollection is greatly diminished.

I’ve always had a tendency to reminisce too much and mistakenly think others share my own reverence for the past and all the experiences and lessons it teaches us.

I guess I shouldn’t be surprised at this. I had always built up that summer in my memory and imagination as something too good to be true. That coming together of future lifelong friends was an epochal time for me. I opened up. I blossomed. I had to pinch myself that it was real.

But now, decades later in the summer of 2024, I am finally realizing that my current view of the experience might be different from that of my friends from back in the day. I always used that summer as a benchmark of what a truly happy period of life is like. That’s still my own personal take on the experience.

But I’ve changed, and they’ve changed. There has been no more camaraderie and long talks late into the night. We’ve drifted apart.

In the past few days, as this summer starts to draw to a close, I realize that I’ve been clinging to the past, wishing I had friends like that now in my old age and retirement. But that’s not the case, and our lives don’t intersect in any predictable or meaningful way anymore. It’s still a lifelong friendship because our past times together cemented that. But it’s a friendship in hiding, and that makes me sad.

Time now to close that chapter in my life and realize that merely holding onto the past, and hoping it could somehow come alive again if we were to get together for a small reunion, for example, is a fool’s game. I’ll cherish the memories and hold onto my yellowed copies of the paper.

Last updated August 11, 2024