Keeping this untitled.. in Thoughts on thoughts

I haven’t written in a while. I haven’t been on here in so long. I didn’t think I had any reason to write anymore. My depression takes a deep end and I go into hiding…
I have to watch another one of my favorite people suffer though cancer. I hate this so much! I watched and held my mother’s hand while she went through this. My poor husband had to watch is grandfather go through this.. now my boss, this amazing, full of life doctor has to go through this shit! I hate it so much! Why do the good ones have to suffer! Why are these amazing people going through such shitty things… and my sister wonders why I have such a beef with God..