body memories. and rape. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

um so. the body memories were at a 1, 2 for a few days. I’ve had 3. yesterday again I woke up crying and really emotional and over tired. I don’t remember dreaming about the rape but I always have this feeling I did. and of him. on some night before yesterday I had body memories/flashback. er I mean a, flashback. it was a 5.
re-experiencing all this sucks. i’m in shock. and i’m also numb cause I haven’t been eating not really.