Drained in Current Events

Is anger a mood disorder? (That was a rhetorical question)

I knew how to manage my anxiety and depression. This anger I experience every morning is getting worse. All I want to do is physically hurt a bitch. I am going to go to Supernova over nothing any day now and lose my job. I gave every single customer during my episode a lot of attitude. It was just a little but that is way too much. It lasted until we went for our second break. It is exhausting trying to be pleasant. I don’t need to ruin anyone’s day.

Once I got the opportunity to talk to my harmless crush, I started to feel better. We added each other on IG. I told him he would have Sigattarius in his birth chart and he does. It’s so obvious now that I can see his private IG account. He does a lot of traveling. He very much likes to socialize. He is perfectly content walking up to perfect strangers and striking up a conversation. I admire that. We talked about how social media is ruining everyone’s social skills. They don’t know how to carry a conversation. They get creeped out by them. He needs to sit on my face. That will make me feel better.

The car hunt is long and full of terrors. There isn’t much out there for me. I’ll have to stick with a sedan. The cost of used cars is sickening right now. There is that 2017 Dodge Charger I keep looking back on. It’s selling low because of its high mileage, fleet use, and accident history. It rear-ended somebody. Because of its fleet use, it’s been serviced regularly. I could negotiate a better deal. I’m contemplating it. It’s selling at a price close enough to what I was willing to spend on the last few vehicles I took for a test drive.

I am so drained from this carhunt. I can’t tell if I am being indecisive or decisive. I don’t think I am needy. I need something cost-effective and fuel-efficient, with AWD or FWD. Winnipeg seasons are not normal. We have a winter season, a pothole season, and a construction season. My caliber was a power bottom. It bottomed out more times than I count. I’m not a bad driver, our potholes disappear when it rains. No lane is safe. I use CARFAX to get its service history and detailed report. Then ChatGPT saves me the time of going through it and lays it out for me which helps me with the negotiating. Negotiating is something I suck at, if we want to talk about a lack of social skills. This is a new experience for me. I’m holding my ground so far. Today, the manager came and they gained up on me to add pressure. The Dodge Journey that I took for a test drive was pretty decent but it’s too big. It holds 6 seats. It’s just me and my multiple personalities. I’ll stick with a sedan, they’re more economical right now. Unless I get a luxury car. Then it gets more expensive. I did find a few that were in my budget (15-20k tops). But then I can spend a little more and get that 2017 Charger that nobody is wanting. It’s not as good as the 2021 one I test-drove that is selling at 29k. It’s selling at 18k. It comes with a 3-year warranty. The wear and tear will definitely be accelerated but I’m used to repair costs. I’ve always driven a beater.

I really am just done with this though. I just want to have something. I am tempted to just settle. I can still have a hot girl summer…

Speaking of a hot girl summer, the girls and I are going to hit up the harbor town up north this Saturday. Should be nice. We have to discuss our camping trip for next month. I hate that we are tenting. We could have been yurting but Ange and Carly were playing hard to get. Lenstar and I are still pissed about it. We have to plan everything. To my surprise, Carly stepped up about this weekend. Should be nice.

Last updated July 25, 2024