Donate clothes,manipulate me,try take feral cat in Life of a cat mom

I told my husband that I wanted to go shopping. I haven’t had a car in over a month due to have to repair the transmission on my Dodge Spirit. Talan argued how I have to much clothes and I need to get rid of some. He argued with me making me bag up a bag of my clothes before I am even allowed to buy 1 piece of clothing. I told him how this reminds me of my dad shredding my clothes when he thought I was misbehaving as a child. Dad used this manipulation to get rags for his garage. I never bought anything nice because I know it will simply be taken from me. My husband made it obvious today he as bad as my husband. I donated the clothes and asked him if I can look around Goodwill he told me I wasn’t allowed until I throw away another bag of clothes. I got to give away 2 bags of clothes to allow me to have 1 tshirt? Wtf.

My husband got upset when I asked him to get groceries for the house. He picked me a cinnamon sugar pretzel to eat but kept arguing me everytime I tried to add groceries in the cart at Sam’s. I let him pick what he wants. He told me he intended to keep me home next time he buys groceries. He refused to get a job, but he loves spending my money.

He reminded me that mom and me got the car fixed but he lusted after a $6,000 Bronco he said I should buy him. I told him with it being from the 70s it isn’t worth that much if he got to spend that much buy a newer vehicle. He reminded me the car I fixed was from 1994 Dodge Spirit. My car is 30 years old. He looked at me saying I paid $1,200 for it. Yes had to pay to fix the transmission but I don’t own a car payment. It was the cheapest car I could afford. It isn’t the prettiest but it runs. I only make $1,200 a month. I lived at my jobs hotel to serve breakfast! I gave up my entire life and happiness just to get a car. Days I sat in the room wanting to die hoping that my car would be fixed soon.

I won a fishing trip in a raffle. I had to cancel it because yes I had the car but not the money for gas. My husband and I plan to do our free fishing trip in August. Hopefully I will have enough to skin by.

I have been caring for my mom’s cat Shy. He is a feral Siamese. Talan and I bought this cat flea medication and I tried to bribe him with treats begging talan put the medicine on Shy he ignored my cries for help. Talan chased Shy though the house. Shy cried out in horror. Talan trapped the cat in a box carried him into the living room we gave Shy flea medication. I petted Shy while he cried from fear. I have been trying to tame Shy though to take him to the vet. He needs a check up but he is feral and I fear he might hurt us or the doctor. Mom never pet that cats or attempt to socialize it.

I have been trying 2 years. After 2 years he eats from my hand and takes pets but if you pick him up he might attack. I never gave him away because he distrusts humans and I don’t want him to think all humans are the same. I love this cat. Shy is my cat Cinders Daddy. Shy baby mama Turtle lives with me. Turtle and Cinder get along well. After I can afford to fix mama cat and daddy I eventually plan them both to live with me.

I wish I could say my life was amazing but it’s against my beliefs to lie. Life sucks but I am trying. I guess that matters.