Unsorted Memories in A New Chapter

Do you ever just sit there, having a nice cup of coffee, looking out the window or at the TV..and random thoughts come to your head. Maybe about going to the supermarket or things that need to be done at work, the usual responsibilities. Then, random thoughts start popping up. You remember said person and wonder what they’re doing now, then you remember where you lived at the time, or maybe a movie you watched and you don’t remember the cast. have a few random ones that keep popping up.

1. When I was in 4th grade, I remember that I wanted to test my long-term memory. I wanted to pick something unique and see how long I could remember it clearly. I kept seeing things but nothing really clicked. One day I was riding the bus home and looking out the window. I saw a beautiful deer in the snow walking near a stream of water. I knew I had to remember it and I still do.

2. A few years ago, I was having a pretty rough time. I used to work on Sunday back then and I would work from home. After a shift, I went outside and listened to “Goodbye Horses” by Q Lazarus. It started to rain as I was walking through my neighborhood to get some air. I still remember that dread, it felt like I just wanted to run to the car and drive far, far away. I’m not sure what it was, but I remember all the music I listened to that day.

3. Back in the mid 2000s I was taking a lot of road trips with my dad. We traveled all over the East Coast to meet his clients and sign distribution deals. My dad always took me along since it was a great opportunity to learn about business, I think he also wanted company. One time while traveling from Ft. Lauderdale and Daytona, we kept passing these massive suburban neighborhoods. I could see them from the highway. I was wondering who lived there and what their lives were like, what they enjoyed doing, what their pasts looked like, etc. It was one of those philosophical moments, thinking of every little soul there, and how complicated every life was. Dreams, aspirations, adventures, etc.

I might revisit this at some point, with my random recurring memories.

I was looking through some e-mail folders trying to find stuff and I ran into a draft of an entry I wrote back in 2012. I have been arguing with myself if I should post it here. 2012 was a fucking whirlwind of emotions for me. What a fucking year. You can tell from the writing that I was going through some things. I’m not surprised really, I have mentioned before that it was a wild one. I got out of college and I was trying to find my place in the world.

Maybe I will post it. I need to think it over.

Music: I need some fine wine and you, you need to be nicer by The Cardigans